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i moved

2007-02-18T23:09:00.000-08:00

after being left satgnant for months...

我要搬家了！！！
I MOVED!!!

violethumour.livejournal.com

it will be a totally pure cheena blog, in response to what i study in school:p
THUS, if u cant read chinese, dun make a wasteful trip there, im very sorry.
i MAY come back and update few entries if i have time.

pls relink me if u accidentally saw this entry
btw, becuz of livejournal's rigid setting, i cant link ppl on my blog except for livejournal user.
so dun expect to see ur link address on my blog.

*pat pat the dust on my blog*
see you on my NEW blog~ =D

mo li gong zhu

2006-10-07T09:22:00.000-07:00

今天是个感动的一天。
中午起来赶到报馆参加邢丹的自耕地检讨会。
想不到亲爱的锐鹰帮惠梅及我庆生。
特别感谢邢丹制作的video，我真得很感动，亲爱的，你做的好美，我真的好喜欢。
那是我收过最棒的礼物。
当然还要感谢其他的宝贝们，显惠，思婷，唐婕，洁蕾...爱死你们了！虽然还有五天才是我生日啦，哈哈，不过真的很感谢你们。:)

之后赶下art house跟sheena, yeeting, zhi xin, shi ya看“茉莉公主”。
这是一个三面观众席的小型精美舞台剧。
整个灯光，音响，演员的感觉都很棒。因为台近的关系，整个戏的气势更强烈。
台词几乎都像在念诗，不过感情很强烈。
由于整个灯光跟音乐的关系，整个戏剧有很神秘很魔幻的氛围，仿佛真的到了那个什么什么嘉布莎皇朝。
演员表现得也很棒。只是老演员被大量使用在这出戏里。
一名在跟公主恋爱的武士看起来根本就快50岁了，还跟年轻人一样跟公主谈恋爱。
还有一个表演打棍的骑士也看起来50好几了，还在那边跟年轻人打架，边表演头还边晃，不是那种故意的，而是年纪大，不自觉的晃，看起来真令人鼻酸。
不过整出戏真得很棒，感谢老师临时说免费赞助，即使花那22块也值得啦。

看完之后，蕙君跑来加入我们吃饭。之后又跑去esplanade讨论修改的AP script.
终于搞定后，sheena临时又要吃饭，接着又跑去lao pah sat赶下一摊。
吃完后，才撑着一个胀肚子回家。

说到AP，感谢那些愿意买票下来参与这次心灵饷宴的朋友。
但有些亲爱的朋友，看到了我的SMS还好心的连个回应都没。
不管怎样，在这边再继续大力的宣传一下！！！

义安理工学院CASSAC年度大制作
结合戏剧，合唱团，口琴，华乐及舞蹈。
为所有对艺术有兴趣的朋友们带来一个前所未有的心灵饷宴。
本人我！！当然也有参与这次的戏剧演出，无论演什么角色，甚至没演（Finale的时候会出来Say个Hi的:p)，这都是一个相当值得您欣赏的演出。
无论是脚本，灯光，音响，当然还有表演者的品质，都是一时之选，绝对绝对的精彩！！
不要再犹豫了，请立刻拨打或SMS电话 91845884，与我订票。

中文系的朋友们，你想看Peter, Cindy, Yufung, Huiting, Vivian, Peiling, Joycelyn, Huijun, Yifang, Annie及我无懈可击的呈现吗？（笑~）下来吧！！

通讯员的朋友们，这是一个很好的交流机会，有许多通讯员已经买票下来观看了，不要犹豫，联络我吧，不管你是想看演出，想看我跟你们SayHi（笑~），还是与其他通讯员聊聊，这都是再好不过的机会了。

在此重复订票热线，91845884。
不要犹豫，以免向隅！这是你拥抱艺术的一刻。
下来吧！
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91845884

2006-09-28T08:43:00.000-07:00

又是一阵子才上来写blog
最近搬了家，搬到离学校比较近的clementi west
决定新家的地方到搬完家不过一个礼拜的时间。说实在的，除了这个房子有点老，有点阴森外，我还蛮喜欢的。
房间的窗口往右看就是西海岸，晚上还可以看到灯火阑珊的港口夜景。我想这就是为什么我一来到这个家我第一个就选择这个房间，即使这间房子比另外两间来的小。
搬家的理由不外是妈妈决定回台湾开始他的新生活。是没错，我们这三个孩子绑了她快30年，也是她该决定选择他所喜欢的生活的时候了。
听说妈妈现在工作的医院很美丽，依山傍海，还有几个也是退休的老朋友在那里服务。
很替她开心，毕尽谁都希望能在这样的环境重新新的生活。她从不说她是在过养老生活，因为她还要赚钱，还要冲刺，还要跟她的朋友疯狂（笑~）。
我很羡慕她，因为她那边美丽的环境，因为她终于可以一般放下对这个家庭所操的心。
等到有一天，我看遍我人生的每个美景，每个世界美丽的角落，带着感动丰富的心，我也要回到我的那个最初，回到我梦想的生活。那里一定有美丽的海还有山，当然还有陪我走过半个人生的那个人，虽然我还没找到他（笑~）。
好像想太多了。

今天上午送完妈妈后，我的独居生活也就开始了，虽然还有姐姐这个累赘（笑~），但生活比以前来的有自主权。
要开始计划未来的生活，有些该丢的，也该丢掉了。该开始的，也不该犹豫。
有很多东西向要分享，但总不知道该怎么表达，我想等感觉到了一个涨潮点再说吧。

最近的生活说忙也不忙，说惬意也不是说有很多时间打发。
舞台组练习，学校一些小活动，报馆的一些小东西，就这样打发了我将近三分之二的假期。
倒是有些东西向上来分享一下。
最近看了一些书，看新的，或示翻些旧的来看（其实还是有蛮多空闲时间的，笑~），有一本真的值得推荐。

成英殊的《地狱门》，皇冠文化。
我相信，可能到目前为止，没几本华文著作可以把所谓的“暴力美学”描绘得如此动人，瑰丽。
没错，就是暴力。
内容里不乏许多拳击，围殴，鸡奸轮奸，变态杀人，折磨的场景。
它描绘的是一名相信天使存在的神父，为了替他所爱的一个儿时玩伴顶罪，进入了监狱。
而监狱，就是所谓地狱的大门。
在这里面，杀人及被杀都是相当常见及合理的。每个人都是范下相当惊骇的案件才被关在这个监狱。
在里面，要活下来，就只有变强；要生存，就要杀人。
而在这地狱里饱受煎熬的天使，学会了生存，而这个技巧，当然来自于玷污他自己的双手，他还坚信爱吗？
自己去看这部小说。
当然，这部小说并不只是纯粹的暴力杀人及淫乱，作者把其中的爱描绘的很微渺，却有强大。
读完这部小说，你会感受到它背后那股强大的爱才是这部小说一个隐藏的主轴。
作者的笔工真的很了得。
一本好的小说怎么去分辨？
我选择用在看完那部小说后，对心灵所带来的冲击的程度来辨别。
烂得小说，读完就读完了。
稍微好的，感动在读完最后一个字后就蒸发在空气里。
好的小说，读完后会有一个很强大的心灵冲击等待你去咀嚼，去体会。
这本小说，没有上述的任何反应。
我再读完后，先是一个喘息，好像从一个文字的战争中熬过来，也好像跑完马拉松后的喘息既满足感。
之后我又很自然地翻回到前几页，再读一遍。
之后伴随而来的，是强到不能去挡住的思潮冲击。
我无法去咀嚼，思考，因为这个能力早被这本书带来的感动给淹没了。
它就是这么的棒！！
一定要去看。

updation

2006-09-08T13:55:00.000-07:00

OMG~!!!! its ages since i last blogged!!!
ok... i hav been told to update my blog countable times, but... i was nt in the mood to do so...
and i dun noe wat spur me to come up and do this long awaiting (:p) task...
anw, breifly read thru the previous few entries, and i realised...
soooo many things happened over the 2 months...
my first sem in chinese studies officialli ended few weeks ago, as i had been mentioning in previous entries that i reali feel blessed to be in this claz...
howeva, after one sem, sth seemed changed behind all these...
how do i put it??
juz simply... changed...
as the times goes by, many people revealed their true colours...
i cant say if its gd or nt... juz that i learned to shut my mouth up when im in front of some ppl, under some situations...
dun be kepo... simply speeking...
anw, sth shldnt be talked too much on blog, misinterpretations happened always here
im juz talking some crapps making me feel better and preoccupied
to my dear frens, the true colours i mentioned are nt purely meant to be negative
i oso found out some people r worth befriending after i saw wat kind of ppl they r
whereas some r nt, and i hav taken my actions to keep away frm them
juz to protect myself... :)

after one yr of being ruiyig zuzhang, i gonna continue my regime for one more year...
i noe its hard for them to consider my position for the coming year, so i dun mind renewing.
gotta do 3 more huixuns, few more zigendis, inner group activities, and a lot of "sai gangs".
haiz... my dear ruiying, im here with u for one more year

banjiang
speaking strictly, its a banjiang with some flaws and technical hiccups...
maybe we din do a trial run in advance, so it turned out to be unsatisfying
maybe...
maybe...
too many maybes, but no point crying for spilt milk, anw, its reali fun working wif gladys...
my dear partner, u rux!!!
u reali rux, u made my days wheneva we met for preparation
u juz damn funni and sometimes irritating, but anw, luv u dear
its nice to work wif u, thank u for listening and agreeing to my every crazy thought over the programmes, and totalli out to make it come true
hahaha, hope next time we can work together agn :)
dear, yijun, thank u v much oso
althought it wasnt up to e expectation, but u reali rux oso, thank u for letting me do wat we wan to do
thank u v much:)

before i forget, ruiying, u all rux the nitez!!!!
luv u guys so much, althou we din get the prize of best group, but we got you yi group in the end...
u guys hard works paid off on the shining trophy under the lights in auditorium
dear billy, we made it, thanks for all the helps u gave me this year
and everyone in ruiying, u guys r the best, lets work hard for the coming year, and years ahead:)

school works
wat worth mentioning for the past 2 months is the toning gang
omg, to meet the deadlines for every project, jessica wangyu annabel meiting shuangying mingxiu me...etc took turn to stay at one anothers places...
wat a most memorable times of the sem, so happening and fun, althou we din fulli make use of the times staying outside to do the projects
but all these happi memories made everything worthwhile...
think the coming sem we gotta do it agn, as more group projects are to be done...

school end
exam results r given out soon
heard frm chenying laoshi that i din do well for my writt comm in Eng compared to other modules...
i expected it, frm many perspectives, i knew i wont do well in this module
anw, got back my final term papers for chinese pop culture and chinese music and lyrics
satisfied with the results:)
TWO v big thanks go to jessica and annabel, u 2 r my lucky stars, haha, working with u guys is nt onli fun but fruitful, hahaha, thanks darlins:)

siping 21st bdae
hey qin ai de~~~ finalli u r 21!!!!
u can go buy those alcholic without fear of being caught, althou u seldome do it
and u can also go golden theatre to watch those R21 movies to quench ur thirst if theres any, hahahahaha
anw, a v big big big happy birthday to u:)
sori our present hasnt been delivered to singapore, haha, sounds so valuable and precious, and it will soon be in ur hand:)

ok, i think there r some things missed to be mentioned, anw, i will try to come and update it more frequently, so that 10 yrs down the road, whenva i look back, theres sth serve as the proof for my fun and memorable times now:)

tml (ltr) going billy 18th bdae party, shld get some sleep beforehand, or else no energy to play mahjong with them:P

hey dear

2006-07-12T02:18:00.000-07:00

sth happened to us in sch todae...
becuz of some misunderstandings or the differences in the definition of sth, we had a little quarrel (or a small debate) todae...
anw, for all my dear frens who know abt it out there, i still believe in 2 things

1. we r ALWAYS the closest frens
2. frictions and quarrels (debates!!) is part of the process that make us understand one another better

tml is another day, is a better day, i oso believe in this:)

sth came to my mind

2006-07-11T04:51:00.000-07:00

as wat i mentioned to wangyu and yuzhi 2 days ago, everytime i listen tanya chua's songs, esp the latest one "beautiful love", i wld almost be on verge of crying...
nt becuz sth sad happened to me tat relates to this songs.
neither is the lyrics tt describes sth abt my life or wat i had gone thru in the past...
juz the melody, her voice, the feel that make me on verge of tears alomost EVERYTIME...

it reminds me of the times happened since the Olevel until now...
all along, i gained a lot, lost a lot, sth lost after i realised that i once gained it...
too many things happened, watever bad, sad, joyable or hurt....
juz that whenever i tot of all the people that happened stumbled into my life... i will feel that im blessed... i shldnt think of those i lost...
becuz all these were never belongs to me and now, they accompany me whenever i feel alone or in need...

i noe sometimes, we cant ask for sth more than wat we shld deserve... however, when i have sth, i want sth more, sth special and different frm wat i had...
n all along, i never learn how to treasure things that in my hands...
n when i open up my hands agn, i then realised sth has gone...

i always hav a sensation that, if i never met up with some people... my life will totalli be different...
if i never met O level gang, i may be leaving for taiwan and continues my studying there...
if i never met them, my long holidays will be so damn boring and dead...
if i never met T02, my life in NP will definitely be nt as interesting and joyful as now...
if i never met the 9 ppl gang, i may most likely be veri alone in sch.. and NP to me is just a place for me to pursue my studying, nt sth memorable to me when i leave the school...
if i never join SAG, i may nt realise that drama is sth so interesting and those ppl are so cute...
..................

however, there r sth i dun wan to talk abt, for its just meaningless...
or... i learnt a lot frm it... and now, i shld peacefulli say a goodbye to them... cuz they will never come back to me...

anw, be it a sat or joyful thing, i still feel veri blessed wif wat i have now...
i noe sumtimes in future, they will leave me for sumwhere belongs to them... some others will come to me and share my gd and bad in my life...
gradualli, i feel tat we need to learn how to face the various loss in our lifes... and treasure watever we have... and when they leave, try to smile to it and say a peaceful goodbye...

i saw my frens grow up frm the ones i met in the beginging... and they are doing a better life for themselves... im so touched with the differences they made... cuz to challenge all the odds in life and pursue dreams is sth we shld feel happy abt... however, now i realised, i cant let go on those i tot that belongs to me.. they r changing, they can leave me when they wan to go sumwhere else, can go out and look for somewhere new and beautiful
actualli...im oso doing the same thing... with or without my awareness, i drifted away frm those i used to be with...
to lose up my grip... maybe i will feel better

sth veri ironic, i feel im going thru sth yuzhi and huimei gone thru before... and i was trying to console them for all these...
and now, i realised, i never noe how to face all these changes on my own feets...

我失去过，更珍惜拥有
now i noe wats the things touch me whenever i hear the song,"beautiful love"

多庆幸我是我，被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住我的手，不要放手永远守护我
a token of gratefulness to those who accompanied and accompany me...

O level gang
TXY
Ruiying
9-people-gang
T02
SAG
EVSS
thank u dears... i reali thank u for everything u gave me...
u guys always mean veri different to me
luv u...
and
thanks
:)

(dears, im definitely fine, its just im digesting sth in my mind... dun think tt im abnormal or watver negative emotions are obsessing me, haha, i luv the word, obsses..:p)

qiangmic

2006-06-23T17:07:00.000-07:00

last nite is qiang mic semi final.
altot not so many ppl turn up for the event, but the atmosphere is still v high.
its juz like a bigger ktv session only with 4 judges ard.
anw, i reali luv the whole thing last nite.
before the event start, i was damn panicked for dun noe wat reason
when the event start, i gradualli relaxed dwn, n enjoy other ppl performces.

before me is guy category, basicalli the top few who stand out r predictable.
however, i luv the feel when i see ppl on stage and perform with sincerity.
tts sth u cant find in normal ktv session.
they r reali prepared to come up to stage.
i think its nt onli becuz of winning matter, but a courtesy to the organising team.
they dun wan to organise an event where ppl join with nth prepared.

next category is duet.
me n yiwei is the last one. basicalli, its oso quite nt bad.
cuz oso can saw they perform with sth prepared on stage.
can it be the dance steps or small skit, its reali v nice.
n some of them r reali nice in their perofrmances.

the last category is a long awaiting performance, girls.
speaking frankly, i dun reali noe who wld be able to stand out.
everyone of them are so damn gd in singing.
singing ballads with a feel, singing fast songs wif groove.
the overall performance is quite high.
n i did reali enjoy everyone sing on stage.
huixiang n siping are predicted to bring a gd performances
yuting, meizhu and jinli, their vocal r so nice.
huifen xiaohan n tangjie were so stage smart.
anw, its reali the highlight of the nite.

after the contest, its followed by a so called revival round.
n i was a bit shocked when i heard that yiwei n i were selected into it
nt becuz i tot we will be the top 2 lah, haha, but a bit surprised that we can stand on stage for second time.
boys part i din reali watched, cuz i was practise outside.
category part, speaking frankly, i luv the part i sing with yiwei.
yuan zou gao fei is the song i learnt rite after i graduated frm fen shou kuai le.
so, it meant sth much to me. it oso accompanied me thru the harsh Os times.
and yiwei is damn nice in harmonising, n his vocal itself are oso flawless.
and i luv aileen n xiaohan's item.
they play guitar wif singing. its reali sth veri interesting and comfortable and, of cuz, enjoyable.

as for gals, i still cldnt tell who will stand out.
as in, 3 of them are already flawless in their vocal singing, and the feel in it are perfectly shined during their performances.
i luv meizhu's sound, i luv yuting and siping's feel.
its reali hard to makr them into a rank.

anw, in the end, meizhu won the entry into final.
was happi for her while feel pity for the other 2, or lets say, the rest of the gal semi finalists.
cuz they r definitely gd enuf to stand on the stage of final.
guys part, qingxiang strided a step closer to the crown.
as for duet, we won aileen and xiaohan wif 1 mark's diff.
i was damn shocked and surprised when yuneng gave out the result
altot i luv our performance, but i think their peroformance wld favour judges for the talents.
ok lah, i was a bit on verge of tearing when i heard the result.
too many ppl to thank to.
besides the judges, all those ppl shouted for us.
i noe they all knew tt i was veri panicked before going up to stage, so they cheered to support us.
and i reali thank all these, whereby i got my courage frm.
and of cuz yuneng, altot u suan me all the way ever since the audition, but u reali kept me cautious of my performance.
after all, a veri big thank goes to yiwei.
without his help and back up, i cant stand on stage alone with my weak vocal performance.
n e buddy kept teaching me e correct way to sing.
n cover up those parts i cant sing properly.
u reali helped me a lot, its reali true tt i gao pan him n now he carried me into the door of the final.
thank u yah, uncle daniel~haha

anw, i reali luv the event last nite, nt onli in terms of the performing level but the atmosphere exeuted frm the whole thing.
ppl r reali prepared to perform. tts sth im reali v touched
at least its e best show i hav ever watched, a big applauce shld be given to all those who contributed to make it whole=)

crazy world cup

2006-06-13T13:03:00.000-07:00

im never a soccer freak, however, i started going mad for the FIFA world cup
tot i had seen e commercials of the FIFA world cup on tv for many times, but i nv fall crazy for this game that many men running for a ball...
because of jessica
because of yufeng
because of wangyu n joy...
i gradually fall in luv with e sports tat many men running for a ball...

todae, since we watched the repeat of a match in sch lib...
THEY hav been watching 4 matches in one row...
i went to join txy steamboat session halfway they watched the match in the sch
after tt, ard 12am, i came to tampinese mac to join their, jessica, wangyu and joy, shouting for the LIVE soccer matches...
first one is france to switzerland
in e end, they are even... 0 to 0
a rather boring n lame match... we shouted for nth

next one is brazil versus croatia
omg... the atmosphere is totalli different, its much more exciting and breathtaking than e previous one
before half time, a goal scored by kaka mounting the whole exitement to e peak
everyone in mac shout n jump all at once...

now watching the second half of the match
altot i nearly cant stand it, im damn tired...

anw, i luv the atmosphere, i luv the feeling of watching soccer game wif them
im sure i wont possibly watch soccer match alone at home
im sure i will miss the times spent shouting for the matches wif them =)

many things happened

2006-05-30T15:32:00.000-07:00

wow..its lyk how long i din come up n update my blog...
quite a lot of things happened previously...
wen hua ying is finally over...
with my rather last min preparation for outdoor game... luckily it turned out ok...
but some hiccups are unavoidable, like its e first time wet plan is used for e game.
phew........
spent 3 days in downtown east for the camp. e camp for tis yr is rather diff frm e one 2 yrs ago. campers... e campers for tis yr r oso veri diff, ppl said 1 yr in diff can create a big generation gap, n it indeed reflected on those campers... ppl joined wen hua ying tis yr is obviously more disciplined n easily going crazy compared to last batch ones...
too many things to mention, but lazy to type out...
cuz to ppl who joined wen hua ying know wat hapened already
to ppl who din join dun bother wat was happening i suppose...
anw, its reali a big lesson learnt...
thru e preparation, i reali learnt a lot...
like i dare nt to reply phone call or msg late juz for laziness...
n e inbox n outbox of my hp r to be cleaned once a while...
no last min works...
no uninformed MIA...

its reali a lesson, or rather lecture, learnt for e way i doing things...

wen hua ying is over... life is still going on...
meaning e projects r still to be done... as well as many assignments following up...
time to chiong for all these... as wat i said up there, no last min work...:p

now doing the last huixun in my regime of ruiying leader, after tis i can finalli step down...
oso, i reali learnt a lot thru being a leader for tis yr... altot e next leaders r nt fulli confirmed, but for sure i will nt stay for 2nd yr... those things i promised to do but havnt got crarried out like badminton tournament n pai ban workshop hav to be organised in tis june holidays...
ruiying babies, luv u all:)

after e huixun, its ban jiang...
doing e programme part with gladys... juz like last yr, she is my working partner agn...
tis time i wont do last min works le!!!

2006-05-09T04:02:00.000-07:00

my tutorial group:)

taken at e speech comm lesson todae
im e ugliest one i think, hahaha
anw, todae's tutorial quite memorable,
wont forget abt it forever :)

credits to: Mr Danny Yeo Chin Wei, aka e man standing at rite in first row:p

lectures interlude

2006-05-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

now its waiting e chinese music tutorial start, almost all e tutorial group r sitting by e door of e classroom waiting for our lecturer to come n open e door for us. as we had our lunch(breakfast?!) earlier on, so we decided to cum n wait here...

tis morning we had our chineser speechcomm, n we r required to do a presentation in group of 5 abt e chinese character n its sound n note n things abt it....

our goup is assigned to do e breakdown of e han yu pin yin of chinese words...
as wat yang jun wei said, we shld make our presentation as more creative as possible instead of e traditional powerpoint presentation...

n our presentation is super creative(haha, of coz i wld say tt wad, its OUR presentation leh..)
jiamin n xinyi were doing a skit
annabel n wangyu need to lead everybody sing song
n miaolin in charge of slides explaination...
n me... OMG... im required to do DANCE as e opening...
its like... omg... i never leanr dance before ok??
how cld i move a sexy danceteps in front of a whole class...
luckily everyone is quite familiar wif one another so we support each other thruout e presentation... its like, to cheer n shout loudly so as to prevent e LENG CHANG...

thruout e 3 presentation, one is a pure skit, another one is ppt presentation wif a game...
n speaking frankly, i luv today's tutorial... everyone is so high, so exciting n laughing al e way...

e chinese music lyric is abt to start, i think im getting more n more to like e tutorial group le :)

poly life

2006-04-26T07:54:00.000-07:00

so the poly started 2 days ago
my conclusion is... i luv ngee ann poly... i luv chinese studies.... i luv T02 my tutorial group...
this is my first time feeling tat i wan to study n do well in the studying...
i din make wrong choice to come chinese studies, for e modules r reali for my interests n e lecturers r reali lively in teaching...

SPEECH COMM IN CHINESE
this shld be e module WE like e most. not only becoz e lecturer is yeo jun wei, but e module itself is veri interesting. we gotta tok abt sum interesting issues and come out wif our own opinions tt invovled our thinking to be critical. n how is mother tongue formed in e world n blah blah blah...
in tis module we can speak n tok on our will, as u tok more, u score better in e module:)

CHINESE MUSIC AND THE VALUE
this is e second module i luv e most, cuz it toks abt e chinese music in different era in different regions like china hongkong or taiwan, n, of course, singapore.
e thing worth mentioning is that each of us gotta do a project on a type of music, n i dran taiwan min ge, songs like taipei's sky...etc. i long for doing it n super luckily i can do it as e biggest project for this module...

CHINESE POP CULTURE
i luv e module itself, but i dun reali like e lecturer who used to be a reporter in SPH. altot i had a sentiments of familiarity when i first saw her... but in terms of her lecturing skill, im reali envious of our seniors whose lecturer for this module last year is yeo jun wei, which i feel he wld make e module more interesting.
luckily im quite interested in e content of e module, so it wont make it too difficult to study it...
thru e module, i must watch a lot of entertainment shows n magazines n movies n novels tt described "cultureless" by our parents... i cant wait for it!!!:)

WRITEN COMM IN ENG
ok... its e only module in eng for this sem... initialli i tot it wld be a no kick module tt u can pass it easily as long as u write more eng essays... but after e first lecture, im proved wrong...
we gotta write types of eng essays, prominantly argumentatives, n search lots of info on each topis we write...
in short, its like e GP in jc...:(
just nice, im doing my O eng e end of this yr, i can take it as a eng lession for me to prepare for e exam...
hope i wont repeat e module in next sem...

CHINESE LITERATURE
in chinese studies, by nature, we hav to study some boring stuffs like litrature...
so its a must do in this course... im fine wif e module, but im totalli not ok wif e lecturer...
as dianjun said before, our lecturer, nan zhi guo, is a gd person but DEFINITELY not a gd teacher..
e statement is proved veri correct... he is nice, but a lousy teacher...
for example, im in e first group presenting a project in week 4, but until now he din tell us wats e topic, wat to do, wat shld we focus on...
totalli nothing
n wat shld i say for e project?
still hav to present by e deadline
haiz........ :(

JAPANESE 101(ENHANCEMENT PROGRAMME)
its actualli an elective chosen myself... however e credits r counted...
so far besides e lecturer has a bit weird accented eng, its veri fine until now
nth to mention coz its juz a jap lesson tt similar to e others even outside sch

these r e 5 modules im studying for e sem, luckily most of it is either i luv or i think i can manage, hope i can do well for e sem

speaking of the class, i reali think it rocks!!!
its so united, as in after only 2 days everyone is mixed together n joke ard in e class...
today we went sch photocopy e notes for e class, supposedly its me who in charge of the photocopying... but some other helpful classmates came dwn n help me wif e stuffs... luckily they came dwn, or else i wld went mad for e hazard, so many things to photocopy, n so messy...
even today wif 9 ppl doing e things, e stuffs r still messy until we feel so anooyed, not to mention if only me came dwn n do it myself...
i think i will commit suicide in e library on e spot...
luv u, t02 :)

so far e poly life to me is sth i look forward everyday, hope e feel can last longer before it faded wif many complicating situations tt may be ahead of our lifes...

as for e cca, haiz, still dunnoe wat to choose...
badmitton? stage art? stage production? NYAA?
think i can only be active after aug when i pass ruiying to next leaders...
omg... still got huixun n zi gen di n more n more stuffs....
life is abit busy, but i still wan to spent more time on ppl whom i treasure more, like TXYs:)
steamboat session on nex tue, cant wait for it

new life

2006-04-20T05:06:00.000-07:00

tml sch orientation...

so excited...
so anticipating...
so worried...

finalli, im going back to a student life...

no more sleeping at 5am
no more wakig up at 2pm
no more slacking, doodling, zuo bo-ing, whole day gossiping session...

but having homeworks, lessons, notes, CCAs....

still having huixun, zigendi, events...

wanting to hav PT working, nice classmates, slacking, supper eatting wif ppl studying in my sch area :p

ok, tats all abt my life to e next phase... i will miss e 6moths holidays
so many things happened, changed...

so happi juz now, eileen(nt e eileen lee in sph) got into SIM...
got one more gossipmate in future... :p

rebecca juz came back frm china, sichuan chengdu...
ah du is going back to china, sichuan chengdu...
fate is a weird n wonderful thing, if both went to later n went back earlier, they might bump into each other in chengdu, tot only rebecca can recongnise ah du :p

going to do huiuxn
last huixun to do this yr

3 to 4 months before pass e position of leader to a new combi of ppl
ruiying, luv u guys, do hard play hard n learn hard :)

new life to start lor~:)

雨人

2006-04-16T02:20:00.000-07:00

最近一直在听周华建的“雨人”
听太多失恋，爱情德芭辣歌，吵闹的R&B，搞好多技巧的歌
突然对这种只是很简单，很简单的感动幸福的歌爱不释手。
其实什么事都应该是幸福快乐的，爱一个人，可以很辛苦地去爱，也可以很幸福的去爱。
不知道为什么对你的爱要求的那么多，明知道很多东西是客观层面不能去要求结果的
却抱着斤斤计较的态度去看每种感情。
以前傻傻地去喜欢一种东西，一样事物，一个人不是很好吗
当我计较地去看每个身边的事物，不如意大多于满意。
该放开的还是要松手，该微笑面对的就该微笑成全，没有的就告诉自己没有，拥有的就告诉自己要珍惜。

我喜欢有一些人，没有什么太大野心的抱负，只是走一步学一步，并看看身边美丽的风景。
对有一些人感到很恶心，他的野心来自毁灭，摧毁每个与他一起追逐梦想的人。是个暴君，建国固有功，毁灭有罪。
我好像是那个第三者，骑着白马拿着软弱长矛在梦里追逐的唐吉柯德，我的梦想只在梦里奔驰。
我是一个生活在平凡世界里，平凡的唐吉柯德

最近很忙，忙着那些不懂为什么要忙得忙，却忙不出个所以然，忙不出我满意的东西。
我该给自己多一点时间，给值得给时间的人更多时间。

朋友最近很烦恼，烦恼着未来，看他对未来最作出那么多努力，希望她的努力没有白费。
相比之下，我显得无能好多，我几时开始为未来做准备？
我的未来，做老师？做记者？我不知道...因为两个都不是我喜欢的东西
小时候有好多梦想，到现在，才发现做梦是那么的困难，不是没有做梦的能力，而是没有做完梦再面对这个黑白世界的勇气。

卡缪说：“演员是最荒谬的角色，因为在他孤单的身体却住着无数个灵魂。”
我觉得，每个人都是一个演员，他的差异只在于身体里灵魂的多寡，唯一一样的，是那个孤单的躯壳。
我们在其他演员身上寻找可慰藉取暖的灵魂，我们需要的，不是那个躯壳，那颗承载无数个孤单的躯壳，我们需要的，是那个可以喂食我们心中那个孤单无底洞的具具灵魂。

好像悲观了一点，说要幸福的。
对呀，要幸福的。无论做什么事，都要幸福。

每个人都该找到那具可以包容他内心孤独黑洞的灵魂，并能接受他内心也是同样孤单的宇宙。
那个能包容我的灵魂，在哪？.....

“雨人“

我相信我愛你
蒙上眼手交給你
慢慢的安心在黑暗中
共有一雙眼睛
我要不斷的愛你
不斷拼湊了自已
生命中所以好不好的過去
仿佛都在等我遇見你...

ohoh

2006-04-13T11:06:00.000-07:00

adopted a pet
a pig
actualli i think e hedgehog is e cutest one
but gwen has adopted it as "brownie"
so i hav no choice but e cute pig
he veri de clean wor, after play wif mud u can clean him wif water...:)
so cute~~~

watched e dream chaser today, (meng . pin tu), my first time watching e show...
n....
i felt like...
they r e real SINGERs, dun think they r reali suitable to act
sinhuey shld be e best among those frm project superstars...
but still a bit like... guai...?!

weilian is a role whom i wld feel a bit uncomfortable when he was acting...
e way he speak is like... reading lines...
i think only speech competition judges will like his way of speaking lines

checked my timetable for e sch juz now
wow~~~ im totalli free on thurs!!!
so shuang, i like poly life
pray-ing i will meet nice ppl in e sch:)

ba la ge

2006-04-10T10:48:00.000-07:00

i luv ba la ge(guava song, meaning e pop songs r general in its melody n lyrics, no significant musical value)

yes, i luv ba la ge

din noe since when ba la ge is deemed as a degrading noun, when ppl ask u wat kind of songs u like, if e song titles u said is classified as ba la ge, as if u r oso degraded in terms of ur taste...

yeah... to sum ppl ba la ge r listened by those who has no great sense in music...
but... its no doubts tt we normalli started listening music wif ba la ge...
at least to me, ba la ge oways ripple my old memory...
it brings back a lot of memories tt i omost tot i hav forgotten...

juz now rip e songs frm e cds got frm e clearance last tym in friday weekly...
now repeat listening gu ju ji's lu bian tan (roadside stall), seven's swallow...

nice

so nice

damn nice

todae went back to sch to get my leaving cert...

e campuz has no much diff but it seems less pressuring than last tym when i was still in evss
now i came back as a VISITOR, nt a student tt afraid being caught shirt tucking out by DM

when i stepped into general office, a short woman at a corner suddenly shout:"hey~~~ congratulation, admitted into CHS huh?!"

it grabs e attentions of all in general office...

wordless... but smile like a idiot n kept saying "no lah no lah, thank u thank u..."

cuz she is e chi tcher who wrote recommendation for me...

e next thing she did surprised me tt i was almost abt to run out of e office...

she went knocking e door f pricipal's office, n told him tt e txy guy was here...

then i was brought into e office, its e next tym i came into e office after e principal tok to me abt my admission in evss 4 yrs ago...

we had a long n deep talk abt wat im going to do in e course, e publicity of e sch n so on...
he even asked me for my contact... i was like... a bit shou chong ruo jing, cuz i seldom tok to mr ee, no to mention to giv him my contacts...

no doubt, he hint tt he wants we can continuie doing reports on evss, cuz after tis yr, e last txy in evss, ting ci, will be graduating, n no one will be in sch n get e first hand new to write campuz article...

anw, im veri glad tt i had chance to understand his opinions on our sch, n on how to thrive more improvements for evss...
mr ee, our solemn but humourous principal, first time tok to me in a way tt he tok to an alumni, its veri diff frm e pasti met him...
all i was worried is tt if he saw me tuck out my shirt or nt, but tis time, i has no tis worry n cld listen to him tok abt things tt he dun tok to current students in evss...

im willing, n oso hournored to continue wrting article for e sch if i got a chance, cuz i owe tis sch too much...

mr ee is e only one principal who reach out for me when i had juz came to singapore n was schoolless, he is e one giv me a chance to study in singapore, in evss...

n mrs tan, e short n loud tcher mentioned juz now, is e one who help me get a chance to study higher chinese in ngee ann sec, when i was not officialli qualified to study e sub... n of cuz, she wrote me a recommendation when i was applying for CHS... she once even wan me to study chinese literature, but i refused... veri sorri, but i noe i cant cope wif e sub when i was abt to take O level...

mr sekar, taught me english by various ways, n oways encourage me to tok n write more eng stuffs...
actualli for all e eng tchers who taught me, they had been trying to improve my command of eng by diff ways... things like buying bks for me, use chinese to teach me eng, n most of all, kept encouraging me when i got setbacks frm each test n exam...
they noe one thing, im a taiwanese, im superb poor in eng
they do one thing, help me learn e language in varied ways...
they ask me for one thing, passed my O eng...

tts why i said, i owe e sch tooooo much... it cldnt be paid back by juz few articles...
never can be paid back...

dunnoe how to describe how i feel now... but juz... wan to do sth for evss, no matter much or less... im happi tt im an east viewer, n oways an east viewer...

btw, regarding e thing tt i was in e newspaper cover, thanks those who sms me, no matter tease or congrats... haha, thank u all my dears... btw, juz for e info of one of those who sms me, e zaobao printer still got ink, it din run out after printing my faces...:P

joke of e day

2006-04-07T08:09:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahahahahahahahaha

was reading one of my frens' blogs...

n i was lyk....

laugh until lose control...

e way she blog, n e content of e posts

i once met a old fren who mentioned tt he is e loyal reader of e blog...

i was so wondering why he so addicted to e blog, n when he described how funni her blog is, 100 of ? filed up my mind...

e blog was e kind tt i seldom visit... or lets say, i NV visit before...

after today's visit...

i do so admire her crapping... she can tok until dead cum alive, fake becum true...

if u din noe e truth behind, u will definitely be deceived lyk idiot...

n in her text, she was described so perfect...

she is a perfect princess in her blog

sian

2006-03-29T15:46:00.000-08:00

start counting days waiting for sch to start...
wat a longggg holidays since i done my Os...
so many things happened
either memorable or disastrous...
i was thinking f doing a lot of things
but i din do anything in e end... i even forgot wat i was going to do
haiz...
recently go np website browse wat im studying everyday
cant wait for e sch reopen...
like a pre-sch child look forward to e new sch life, receiving e new textbks, getting e new timetable, reshuffling new life schedule...

seem hav nth much to do now yet hav many chores in hand...
e biggest one is e huixun... luckily its going to finish on sat...
thx those laoyings who come dwn help out, weizheng n tingjie
big thank goes to jinx, thx for coming dwn... tot havnt seen u, but im sure later u cum dwn u will scold us for e poor huixuns produced over e months first, ha...

last nite had a long tok wif billi on phone...
we were like damn worried abt who will be e next ruiying leaders...
there r ppl who can do part of e job while cant do part...
aiya....
so annoying...
errr~~~~><
(wat a sian post, sian ppl write sian post...)

2006-03-21T11:38:00.000-08:00

a fren is in a crossroad of love recently...
im wondering if love is sth tat cant last for long...
ok... i never trust LOVE tis kind of thing
maybe its bcuz i saw too many ppl get hurt frm it
too many disappointment to stumble ppl
or i juz din possess it so i din noe wat luv is actualli abt...

anw, e fren met a man better than her boyfren...
she said she din compare e man wif her boyfren
she juz realised tat there r men better than her boyfren
e setbacks in their relationships accelerate e sense of untrustworth rise in e fren's heart...
i cant say for sure if she din reali take comparison of e man n her current boyfren...
anw, she found she is tired of e relationship now...
n want to seek for a change no matter on grounds of e man who treat her better than her boyfren does...

e man has e sensitiveness tat she cld never find within e boyfren...
e man give her a sentiment tat she is being treasured as sth valuable
nt like a normal family member tat boyfren din always giv a shit to her feelings towards many respects...
she sway... between e ambiguous feeling between her n e man n e old relationship wif boyfren...
she need to make a decision...
theres no one can never avoid being hurt... n theres no one who will win frm this love war...
love is never a battle...
its juz like a well, u willing to jump in, u will never climb up back with no scratches n hurt over ur body...
maybe love is destinied to be a tragedy... i dunnoe
as wat i said, i never jump into tis well,
i dun noe wat is inside tat pull me dwn whenever i wld start thinking of getting out of it...
hope my fren will choose a path tat can make e hurts slashing on them to e least...

love is a selfish thing, i insist...
love is nt pitiness, is nt painkiller, nt sth used to escape frm things u muz face...
be honest to urself, u wont get hurt too badly, neither wld ur loveones...
only sum emotional knots to be unlosened...
i dunnoe
as wat i said, i never loved before

gan xiang

2006-03-19T08:42:00.000-08:00

so the orientation is over...
i was rather sad when the orientation night is approaching the end... the orientation i can see the whole comm reali out in a lot of efforts

i was reali veri impressed by the orientation night... at first the deco had already shiok me much, the deco is reali tally wif the theme "disco night", the music, the light, the clothes....
super well done, those who organised orientation night...
the emcee, dianjun n silei, were oso veri impressing, its their first time hosting (at least in txy evenvts), they were nt shy at all...
n dianjun's hung up performance was reali e climax, i luv it, haha, n e super high atmosphere, i reali enjoyed e orientation!!
sumtimes i reali think its nt how our works be marked tt matters, its e whole process tt counts, our works may be forgotten one day, but the memory of all of us will last forever...

thruout the camp, there r sum ppl i wan to thank to
first of all, my best partners, meizhu n xiaohan
it was reali veri fun working wif them
i will nv forget e times we discuzing abt the games on phone n the non stop laughters
thanks meizhu, u made the whole organising process a lot more interesting
n xiaohan, thanks for always being there wheneva i had any prob
u guided us along, sum shortcuming were nv be spot by us
its reali a pity tt u were busy for e 3 days of orientation, u cldnt see how our works paid off...
but thanks, it will nv be pull thru without anyone of u... :)

next, thanks aileen n siewping
e most impt ppl in a event is the yingzhang(overall in charge), maybe ppl cldnt see how they helped us ina visible way, but they were like e pillars of the event, without them, e event cant go on smoothly, who guide us when there r things wrong?? who do e decision when there r difference in e opinions?? thank our two cute n funni yingzhang for supportting e 3 days event thruout...
u two made the whole event veri happening n interesting, a lot of new ideas were injected tt made tis yr orientation stand out
sorri tt if theres any imperfections n failures
n thanks for the comm performance, u guys' ideas won e claps, tt sound in my memory always...
i luv tis orientation!!

thanks to wenxian,
thanks for always being there help us when we were in need, those logistic cldnt be prepared without ur helps, hope ur retribution will be reflected in ur block test result, surely u will do well de... :)

thanks to other ppl who were in e events,
tis event wont be so interesting without any single of u, u guys made it memorable, i will always rmb how we play with those wanhui deco, how we rehearse the performance, how we tried to lowere our volume when we chitchat during the talk...

thanks those ruiying ppl as well
billy, thanks for being there when ruiying cums to any prob, i noe u r e best zuzhang i cant ask for more :)
weizheng, thanks for making the orientation booklet, tt was so impresive when i first saw it
xingdan, thanks for e coordination of all the contacts, u helped so much tt i dunnoe how to pay u back
huimei, thanks for accompanying the members thruout the 3 days, xin ku ni le
tingjie, jiashuai, yinghui, jieying, wenjing, yiwei, shimin, thank u all my dears to cum down n play wif our newbies
last but nt e least, thank all my dearest 21th newbies
i luv u guys!!!! u rux e 3 day orientation!!!
i wld nv hav to worried abt ur performance n all that, u guys worked so smoothly n well
i noe im nt e best leader, but im veri sure tt every single one of u is the best member of all!!!!
hope we will hav more n more chances to learn n work together in the future!!! :)

juz now on e way home on bus wif tingjie n huixiang, gladys tok to us abt the zhangxin camp (palm)
i was badly regret tt i cldnt join e camp 4 yrs ago...
tat was sooooo funni n interesting...
ever since i join txy, e annual camp was replaced by the cultural camp...
we din hav e chance to hav a camp of our own tt we can play wif one another...
every single game, moments tt mentioned by huixiang made me more jealous of them bit by bit
i reali hope during my times in txy, there will be a camp like tt, tt imprinted on my mind foreva n eva...
actualli if it is agreed, why nt e 4 activitist of tis yr organised a camp like tt together, surely it will be veri fun n memorable de, if it work out like palm... :)

jpsae

2006-03-07T11:15:00.000-08:00

by god's grace, im admitted into chinese studies in np...
hav been long for getting into e course, all e stress since i got e result n learned tt i got c6 for my eng has been finalli relieved...
one condition on e admission, i muz retake O eng tis year...
fine wif it... in a way can prevent my eng frm deproving by way of it...
anw, veri big thanks goes to sum ppl...
thanx miaoying zhiwei n peiqing for e recommendation letter
im sure it play a veri great role in my admission
n mrs tan n mr sekar, for e testimonials as well
huimei's edition for my jpsae application
mama's advice on compiling porfolio
so grateful to all these kindness...

e morning on 3rd march, i went straight to e com rite after i woke up
went to jae posting result web first,
posted to business info comm, expected...
then went to e jpsae protal
key in my email n password
a word came into sigh...

congratulation!...

was stunned on e spot, i read e name n nric number above
n read e sentence agn

congratulation!you are success in the application for chinese studies at np....

stunned for e next 2 mins...
maybe due to unclear mind after woke up frm bed, or was too amazed by e result
juz cldnt say anything...
e next thing is picking up my hp n sms e gd new to sum of my gd frens...

yeah...i got into chinese studies, e course of my dream since last year...

got sum news frm frens, sum r admitted to e courses they want, sum r posted to where they cldnt believe, sum r nt even posted to anywhere
n those who unsuccessful in e jae application r reali unexpecting a lot...
even those who got 17 for l1r4 still has nowhere to go
puzzled, n wondered...
wat e hell is e moe processing??
altot it can nv be satisfying to everyone in e jae for every yr, but it was sooo overboard, or lets say so unbelievable for tis yr one...
but sum ppl who chose courses tt their results r met e criteria in e 12 choices, whether on top or bottom, r still posted to nowhere...

thus, for these few days, were running ard poly to accompany fren appeal agn
n for sum polys. their attitude n e judgement for ppl appeal is purely based on their results, those talents of e field were even scorned in their eyes...
so realistic...
it may crush our talents of tml...all due to e rigid system...
on tis point, think tp shld be praised for her fairness in admission excercise...
their advisement is reali ADVISEMENT, nt juz shoo ppl away wif unrelevent reasons
they scan thru fren's porfolio n try understanding e situation, they suggest sum other ways out which is more suitable to fren's interest...
n they oso open DAE to ppl at e same time, thru it e talents of applicant were be considered on their admission...

anw, feel so blessed to be admitted into CHS
n quite look forward to e sch open, n a brand new life ahead, whether its gd or harsh, at least its a totally diff life frm tat of my sec sch..
wish all of my frens who r unposted to be able to get into e course of their interest...

camous superstar

2006-02-21T00:24:00.000-08:00

now watching campuz super star...

today one is fan shen sai (revival round)....
those eliminated got their final chances to retreive back to e contest...

out of e 12 singers, e only one i hav sentiments tat he may crown in e contest is Adriano...
no.5 contestant in boy category...me wif his voice...

ok lah, he may looks a bit nerdy, but quite cute in a way... he is oso e only one impreesed wif his voice...

so i was rite, he retrieve back...

but today's contest looks sth wrong...
e 3 judges said nth made no comments throughout e contest
for time constraint??
or they hav been detracted for useless advises? (actually i only felt one of them is extra, u shld noe who i refer to...)
anw..... they seems veri extra in today episode...

realise tat how commercial e programme is...
those valuable advises frm judges made useless in e programme
only who win who lose tat matters...
n e stage deco plus sound system n e constumes on contestants tat matters...

pity those who were chosen to perform on e stage...
haiz....
they r juz sum kind of props used to construct e so called dream path towards e alluring "superstar" title...
they were even nt promised wif a recording contract...
ke lian...
they lost their freedom in exchange of e few moments of illusion being a superstar wif crowds n crowds of fans shouting for them...
juz like e project superstar, besides kelly weilian those outperform other contestants r still alive in few tabloids on newspaper
e others hav been waned in ppl's memory, forever n ever......

ok lah, i still feel quite touched when look at those failed to make it to e semi finals singing their last song on stage...
at least they won my heart... i was REALI touched by e scene

so sad tar shermaine is nt longer in e contes, given tat she quite pretty n voice quite sexy...

yes!!! samuel tan is out!!!

Adriano, teressa jiayou~~ :)

game

2006-02-17T07:42:00.000-08:00

哈哈哈，在阿杜的blog上被點名玩一個還蠻有趣的遊戲。

点名游戏——理想伴侣的8个条件
游戏规则：被点名的朋友需在自己的Blog里公开8个理想伴侶的条件，同时加以说明。
A. 理想伴侶是男or是女？
B. 必须点名8个人，用尽所有办法通知每个被点名的人参与游戏,回答同样的问题。
C. 被点名的人不可重复点名，每个人只可玩一次。

理想伴侣是男是女啊？
......女(阿信和維健例外，哈哈哈)

8个条件。
1.跟我家人處得來
(不要在家演那種要老婆還是媽媽的鬼戲碼......)

2.不用花太多力氣就能了解我的想法，也不用讓我花太多時間猜他再想什麼的人，在一起時話不用太多。
『默契是最寶貴的語言』，真棒的解釋。(阿杜：哈哈哈哈哈哈哈!!!!)

3.不用長得非常好看，(我總沒那種資格要求對方吧！)，感覺對最重要。

4.喜歡聽音樂，(世界上有比兩個人坐在一起聽音樂聊些簡單的天還浪漫的事嗎？)

5.比我聰明，(討厭做決定加上最不會處理家裡水電帳單之類的東西。)

6.能夠跟我一起養狗，帶狗散步。
(小孩......再說吧，我可能跟阿信生小孩嗎？哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈~~~)

7.在我心情不好時不要問東問西，除非我想講，然後可以講笑話逗我開心之類的。
(有點自私啦，誰叫問題是"理想伴侶"，在我不舒服的時候還無理取鬧的人最可怕。)

8.最好不要有性功能障礙，(有點直接啦，不過不能否認性愛是維持交往關係很重要的一環不是嗎？)

好啦，另外一個待會再答，先來點名吧！
daniel, qiumqium, yunching, gwendolyn, aileen, huifoon, nizhen, xiuhui... try calling those who r old enogh to make life partner, hahahaha, for those who hav one by ur side, better to be frank to urself yah?! :P

o level

2006-02-13T12:53:00.000-08:00

last fri 2006 "O" result was released...
had been worried abt it for a whole night before e day...
anw, thanks to jiahao yuchih n huimei for accompanying me thru e considerably suffering night in jiahao hse...
i din reali manega to get a sound sleep tat night...
wat i was thinking is e times i spent in 2005 in evss
altot i insisted tat i hate e sch before, but now, im veri grateful to e sch for nurturing me to pull e O thru...
n then i released tat how actually my tchers luv me n those students in evss...
had a bit regrets for devoting bit less time in sch n my frens...
even e last gathering after O release i still cldnt make it, given tat i had appointment wif Olevelgang...
im quite sorry abt tat, e times our gang (in sch) went out wif me ard is countable wif one hand, n e reason is oways e 1001, need to go sph...
anw, do reali thank all my frens in sch who went thru e O hard time wif me...

so i got 17 for my L1R5... nt so gd in others' eyes but im damn satisfied wif e outcum...
before we got result slip one by one, mr ee was toking abt our performance on O tis yr
generally, we did well compared to previous years, think its partially becuz of e absence of those frm top sch...
when he gave out e list of top 10 scholar in our sch, i, speaking frankly, quite deperately looking forward to my name in e list...
first 5, of cuz theres nt me
n e next 5......
........................
i wasnt there...
a bit disappointed, after all its e veri last exam in my sec sch, i still cldnt make it into e top 10...
when those top 10 scholars went up to stage to take foto wif mr ee, i saw sum of them was tears welled up in their eyes...
umairah, sheena n sum others cried...
im a bit touched as well as disappointed wif myself
i saw them ever since i came in e sch, they grew up to a students wif results of flying colours in their final battle in sec sch... esp umairah, she screwed her prelim before tat...
i was touched by their hard works paid off...

subsequently, we went up to get our results one by one...
when it cums to my turns, i went up wif a scared pounding heart, went towards ms chin...

i received my result slip n stuffs needed to apply for jc n poly....
i saw e sleep,

CABAA

???!!!!
nt bad wad... isit i took wrong slip like xiaohan??

chang cheng yao
(zhang cheng yao)

correct... i counted e numerical grades,
17!!!
gosh!!! i got 17...
a considered dream number on e slip to me...
but see my eng...
C6
din meet e criteria for chinese studies in np...
my heart sunk on e spot
i was happi wif my result while sad wif my eng grade...

after consultation wif mr sekar (my eng tcher in sec4) n mrs tan(my mt HOD), they asked me go n giv it a try, they willing to write recommendations for me...
thank them reali veri much...
n thank zhiwei for helpingh write a recommendation as well
im nt sure if i can make it into e course in e end, but im reali thankful for their kindness...
so my first choice in JPSAE is decided to be CHS...

for JAE, think i will try nyjc wif LEP application for first, followed by CHS...

anw, im here to thank sum ppl who help me thru O... cuz i might nt b able to hav a chance to express my appreciation to them...

firstly, thanks to Olevelgang, jiahao yuchih n huimei, as well as huifen
thank u guys for supporting me n each other all e way till e end of O
all e supporting SMS when we burned night oil, n e cup noodle in zhou bao shi, i reali felt tat its paid off...
n of cuz ur helps in my studying
thank guys
thanks to e sms supporting system founder, huifen, haha, those sms r reali inspiring when i was struggling agnst those stupid books every night

secondly, thank u weizheng
besides finding time to cum dwn n teach us e olevelgang, n thanks for e bet u set up
i noe u did reali worry abt my O cuz of my super poor result in prelim
surely u can never imagine there r ppl who cld get 32 for L1R5 in e world...hahaha
thank u soooo much, maybe i still disppointed u a bit,
n i din go to those gd jc as u wished...
n i din heritate e tradition tat ruiying leaders r frm HCJC LEP ever since e batch of lujing, hahaha
but im still satisfied wif it already, thank u veri much!!!

then lujing billy n liuzhen
oso thanks lujing for e bet on my O result, noe tat u were also amazed by my 32 prelim result, so u set up a bet tat a score of 15 n below for O can be exchanged for a meal...
altot i din manage to get 15 n below, but u still soooooo generous to giv me a KTV treat, thank u sooo much yah..
thanks to billy for e 15 points bet as well, sorry i din make it in e end...m oso thank u so much for being a strict amath teacher beofre my O, i reali learned a lot frm ur teaching :)
liuzhen, altot ur bet is set after my O (precisely before O release), but still thanks for ur generousity :)

thanks our other lecturers, beechoo n peixuan
ai~~ ya~~~ thank u so much yah~~haha, those u taught me for amath i might hav forgotten but ur funni teaching way can never be erased in my heart, haha...
"how many days away frm ur prelim??" ---ur quote

thanks to peixuan for being our chem lecturer, hahaha, u reali taugh us a lot, i miss e days when u n weizehng appeared in zhou bao shi in HCJC uni, haha...

thanks to those who jiayou for me
thank u so much, maybe u din reali help me essentially, but all ur supports help me walk thru e thorny path towards O level end

lastly, thank those who comfort me e day before O results, like my two dear sisters, my nephew, weizheng, siping, xiaohan, xingdan, yijun...etc
altot i was still veri depressed before e result release, but ur words reali work, at least i wont be so suffered...
n thanks for those "ADVISABLE advices" as well, hahaha
like...

"u juz go poly lor~~!!! e simei ITE is oso veri new wad~~!! high class leh... XXX oso frm ITE wad..." --- by weizheng

"why so worried?? if nt gd, juz go back taiwan lor~~!!" ---by xiaohan

"if u xiang bu kai, muz call us first k??? " ---by minwei n yuting

"hwa chong?? its nt a dream, u oso can cum, e restaurant in sch is short of a manager now, got air-con lor!!!" ---by dear weizheng

"i wasnt worried e days before O release, i dunnoe why, u cannot panick now, cuz u will be more panicked tml... even i wasnt panicked before, but i still cldnt move when its my turn to go up n take result slip......" by dear xiaohan

................

hahaha, anw, thank u for cheering me up when i was so dwn tat time (or wat u said is truely wat u thought???)

anw, its all over already, now gotta think how to plan my future n how to put my 12 choices for JAE...
hope it can be settled soon...

ah xin album

2005-12-11T03:05:00.000-08:00

beechoo me aileen n lingying (mayday die hard fans...)

stupid beechoo...took guanyou photo....haiz... can take one more of ah xin de...

.......................(undescribable shuai...)

wat a touching moment is tis......

oh...... tats called stage charisma...

three ppl luv the threemaydayers... masa giv aileen, guanyou is beechoo's, ah xin, of coz, is my favourite...

dun ask me why he so handsome n charming....

how cuter can he get???

pls tilt ur head so as to view his cute n handsome face better, haha!!!

hahaha, so cute!!!!!!!

mayday

2005-12-10T09:38:00.000-08:00

yes!!! its been a longgggg time since i updated last time
think my com is sopilt to a level tat it can work faster than before
but i can tell its going to die for ever n ever

too many things to update over the days
got prelim
"o" studying gang with jiahao huimei n yuzhi
n after "o" the celebration with the "o" gang
n my new job as envelope opening
n, most importantly, the MAYDAY CONCERT TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! its so high until i lost my voice
so cant express my love by shuting "ah xin, we luv you forever!!!!!" at the end
why we???
coz another ah xin die hard fan is with me, ms kor bee choo!!!
k lah, speaking strictly, she luv shi tou more than ah xin
when she attempt to shoot shi tou with my camera, i beat her with my fist!!!
"who say can take shi tou???? i want ah xin!!!!!!"
haha, anyway, its a reali high n enjoyable night
thanks to weizheng, without his free ticket n the generousity to give me, i cant see ah xin in so short distance...
did see a lot of frens there, juz for ah xin (k lah, only lingying n i for ah xin actually)
gekleng, aileen, lingying, jieying, huifoon, huimei, miaoying, zhenling, sujun...
wah!!!! tats why mayday has such strong charisma...

throughout the whole night, i din move my eye frm ah xin
OMG!!! he so shuai!!!! so cute!!!! so charming!!!!
n most imptly, sing so well!!!!
a moment we had a eye contact incidently, (k lah, maybe he juz had glance at me..)
i was like.... electri shocked ny him!!!!!
oh.... the pair of eyes of his.... so enchanting... i was like... bewitched til i totallu lost my sense towards anything ard me...
ok, abit overboard... but he juz so....
fantastic!!!!!

yes!!! he is our saviour
he saved us with rock and roll...
frm this disappointing world
he saved me
yes....
oh... yes....

k lah, too tired le, the photos will upload up...but im sorry, you can only see ah xin, the rest, maybe can search for the corners of the photos...

ahahaha.... so tired... go sleep first
zzZZ...

byebye my classroom

2005-09-26T20:09:00.000-07:00

ok, its reali the end of my sec life... on the last day of our school in our classroom, we took sum pictures during lifeskill time at the back of classroom... for tis classroom is lyk an extra com lab cater for our class, after our prelim we wont use tis room anymore... tis spacious n air-conditioned room is like a symbol our class, n oso the condition made ppl frm other classes envious of us... :)

bye-bye, my beloved n safest place in e school...

nuriysha, aminah, me n ferdi...
guys, i love u forever... :)

with nisa...
meatball face already still blowing like a balloon...

with my two neghbours n frens, aminah & nurishya, we sit at a 3 table-joint place since the beginging of e year... where we sitting is e long table behind our place...

last day in my sec4 classroom, having chatting session then...

i will always remember tis classroom who was once like my second home... n, of coz, those 406 family members...

we r most likely nt meeting one aother agn or take part in each of our lifes once we drift apart tis time... once, we were used to see one another's face each morning... n after tis, we hav sth less to expect everyday in future...

thanks, all my frens n classmates in tis class, in a way or other, u painted my sec4 life wif an simple but alluring colour...

wkend

2005-08-16T10:33:00.000-07:00

lets make tis post more like a diary

1.13/08 prize giving ceremony
had been working veri hard to organize tis ceremony... juz aimed to make it big, impressed to ppl... n it turned out to be like tis, fortunately... will never forget the so called stary lane constructed wif lightsticks...... anw, the last event i involved of the yr... now can totally devote all my attentions on my studying...
got best newcumer award n the best gp award...
happi...

2.14/08 shimei bdae celebration
went to muchuan at abt 2plus... the theme is "its so shimei"... so all the attendants dressed in wither violet or pink... the drinks, cakes, forks.... everything all in purple...
bought a mascara to shimei, dun reali know wats mascara, so juz anyhow took one the salesman recommend... hope she likes it... gift shared wif yuru n yuting

after tat went to marina south watch fireworks... tat was so beautiful... but b4 tat we reali walked a LONG LONG way to get the destination... jianhua n ah du the two men wif super LONG legs kept ahead n we were like chased after them until dying...
when the fireworks finished, on the way back to marina mrt station, shimei's legs were shivering without her control like tat... ah du n guohao might as well carried her the way shimei looks like a queen liddat... n in the end she was sent to the emergency station...
had a supper at orchard after tat... since sips moved into hostel, i got to take cab hm alone... coz nobody live at east zone...
after a long n troublesome arrangement, i went hm in a cab wif wanling... she lived at little india where the cab wld pass by heading for tampines...
thanks her for lending me 20 dollars to pay the cab fare... din withdraw enuf money...
altho in the end i dun need the 20 dollars at all coz the fare was surpricingly cheap...haha...
wish her bon voyage n succee in fishing a nice angmoh at switzerland...haha...

3.15/08 ah du bdae celebration
a typical celebration at muchuan at mon-ster dang... meilian bought a cake for ah du... tis tym shld be the few times i found the monster veri funny... they r funny, but tis time round is more... especially the "tuan jie tuan jie jiu shi li liang" part tat ximei n jianhua pretend to unite together to suan ah du... hilarious...
bought a water bottle frm 77th street as the present... like it veri much when i first saw it... i admit the moment i decided to buy it is actually for myself...haha... but cant reali find sth else can gift ah du so might as well "cut love" to him... the present is shared wif xiuhui n zhiwei...

project superstar

2005-08-04T07:13:00.000-07:00

GET crazy for project superstar recently...
once preconceived tat tis show is nt quality assured... juz bcoz know two skillful singers were disqualified during the first few rounds...
n the reasons seems r their appearance....
a show judge contestants' appearance before their singing skill is nt worth watching...
thus i miss the previous shows...
until like left 5 contestants for each gender category then i started watching the show...
speaking franklly, i was so touched...
nt becoz their singing skill (partially...) but how the show is presented...
they keep featuring the cruelity of the show...
the eliminated singers' tears... their sweat as in how they hav been working for the same goal... n the moment the result given out, everyone, whoever qualified ones or disqualified ones, were crying n hugging each other....
OMG... i juz cldnt help being touched by tis kind of hypocrical warmth...
ok... i rather believe they r true to each other... n the tears were shed for truly relunctance of being apart or wat...
n maybe rite after the show they may be going out to celebrate wif their frens for kicking out a contestant in their roads to champion...
n they may draw a BIG cross on the distorted poster of the eliminated contestant on the wall of their rooms...
but im juz veri touched...
here im, support sum contestants...

1. derrick
the cutest contestant in the competition... n i was so amazed by his singing last time... its so powerful n stable tat u hardly can pick up a shortcuming...
n the way he move, he behave... n the grimaced face he make everytime...
OMG... who can get cuter than him???
though he is rather short... but its ok... who say superstar muz be like f4 tat wif a height of 1.8m???
summore f4 is never a superstar but a money generater...
(sadly i once spent quite a lot of money on them... cant bear mentioning the innocent n stupid past...)

2. wei lian
a guy wif vision difficulity... i hav nt comments on his behaviour... coz being nt able to see properly hinder him frm behaving like a superstar... its firgivable n acceptable... as long as his powerful singing skill help him ascent all the way until the last few rounds...

3.xinhui
OMG...OMG...OMG...
i guess she is the few best singers in the competition... in terms of her singing, appearance, the move on the stage, how she perform...
GREAT.......
great....
great...................

4.kelly
OMG agn... she is so cute like u cant move her sighs away frm her when she perform...
i think she muz be the last four singers fighting for the superstar crown...

project superstar, got u then got him/her (*you ni jiu you ta*)...

unpredictable life

2005-08-03T08:05:00.000-07:00

have finally moved into my new home at tampinese...for tat my internet hadnt been fixed for few days... so sort of lost my contacts wif sum of my frens for abt 2wks...

in tis 2 wks... so happening... happened so many things which is so extremly unpredictable to me...yet it appeared in my n my frens' lifes...
fortunately most of it r considered gd news to me...

in case i will forget one day, better write it down first...

1.zizi get married n had a boy baby the end of last yr
the first thing i do after my internet is fixed is to go n check my email box...
there was a mail frm huiting (to my frens, these ppl i mention r my close frens in taiwan)...
she asked me to contact her asap...
she got in contact wif yuting(nt rebecca or...), keke n zizi these few days...
ever since i last time went back to taiwan tat is abt almost 2yrs ago, i havnt seen her these yrs...
n last time i chatted wif her online is oso long tym ago... coz she was preparing for their uni entrance exam...
i havnt been seeing zizi n keke since the june of 2003... n lost contact wif them since then...
im to blame for all these, coz i lost a bk tat contain the contacts of almost all my frens... included them...
yuting is the worst, last tym saw her is my sec school graduation ceremony at june 2002...

the most shocking thing tat freezed me on the spot is tat...
zizi had got married last yr n had a boy baby end of last yr...
suddenly i lost my words...
the gal who had gone thru so many gd n hard times is a mother now...
she formed her own family...
i felt like crying... coz i was so touched... tat now she had stepped into a brand new phase of her life...
i cldnt forget the times we spent together... we used to hang ard once we dun hav sch...
we went to so many places...
we went cyber cafe n chatted online... she made lots of boyfren online...
n everytimes they broke up... the first person she looked for is me...
we shared our dreams...
she once wanted to be an hair designer... n once a time, the night before the sch level spotcheck, i went to her for helf coz i din hav my hair cut ontime...
so she cut for me...
at the void deck of her house... remebered tat she bring down newspaper n those cutting stuffs... cut my hair on the spot...
altho it turned out to be.... to be i hav to go barber agn...
but i will never forget it...
at the small park beside the apartment of her house... where we used to sit there n shared lots of things... secrets...dreams...n many many more...
she used to be inconfident in love, relationship... in result of her background...
in short, she has a broke family...
but she is a veri positive person... who always encourage her frens in many repects...
she had sum unforgettable relationships...
to her inconfidence n yet the reliance on love, i understand the most...
for so many times i accompanied her to get over each broke relationship...
at the age of us tat time, we always search for those petty things to annoy abt...
i think is juz to show tat we r grown up... had our own worries...
after tat i then realised this fact...
i so miss the days, at there the worries r nr worries... we cld still eat, sleep, study, hang out wif frens as usual... think in a life, everyone muz has gone thru the stage tat we pick up our own troubles to porve our maturity... even though is the most inmature thing ever... haha...

we once predicted tat the first person who get married in our gangs is zizi...
n now it came true...
by then, tat seems so far aways frm us...
getting married, form own family...... it was soooo far away frm our stage then...
the reason for her position is:
"zizi is very reliant on her man...for she feel veri unsafe in relationship.."

anw, how i want to see her now... n her baby...
i wan to catch up wif her times over the yrs we lost contact...
i wan to see how she has changed...
zizi, i know u will never see tis post but i juz wan to tell u...
真的很替你高興
也很替你感動
我真的沒想到你那麼快就結婚了
人的一生中，總會遇到幾個一輩子難忘的人
雖然失去聯絡那麼久
但我還是不時掛念著你
總在夜很深的時候想起那個笑聲最響亮的女孩
國中兩年的日子
我們接觸到好多東西
好多我們人生中可能很難會在遇見的那種純真，執著，天真......
滄海桑田，是我曾經很喜歡的一句成語
如今的世界跟以前比真的可以用這句話來形容
我相信我們都變了
但對於過去回憶那份硬是保留下來的單純
我相信我們都不曾改變
真開心你作媽媽了
變媽媽了，不能像以前一樣那麼貪玩
要好好照顧寶寶
我不認識寶寶的爸爸
但玉婷，可可，慧婷及我......
寶寶會有一堆很疼他的阿姨叔叔的
也會在一個健康的環境下長大的
好想看看寶寶
看看你
希望一路走來，你變堅強了
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(for these dots, represent the unfinished story is still ongoing.....)

2.yunching steaded...
tis is the 2nd thing im so shocked in tis wk
juz now went to frenster
she left a msg to me
asked me how cum i disappear for long time
(usually we chatted online at least 4 times a wk...)
i think yunching is one of my best fren made in singapore...
for we do reali resemble each other too much... tat i mentioned b4 n nt the point
drop it...

these few days she was veri confused wif her relationship...
n gone thru a period of quite hard time, she go wif the guy, a singapore guy in german...
reali wish them... coz tis relationship is reali uneasy to be built...
n i oso neva expect tat they will go along wif each other one day
thanks god... thanks wateva things... they finally hav a happy ending...

our life keep changing at a pace tat we will never get to understand...
i realised we reali got to treasure wateva things in our hands n ppl ard me...
always, wifin a second, without our awareness, many things n times r gone forever...
im so happy for their happiness...
n it made me start thinking over my current life...
sth i gotto treasure, sth i gotto accept n sth i can never give up on...
happiness cum without informing...
n gone without our control...

3.went muchuan wif yuting n minwei
they obviously like the place... veri much... especially minwei, totally fascinated wif the atmosphere there...
the dang tat day is weiyang n michaell
yuting n minwei were totally fascinated by weiyang...
kept exclaiming tat how cute he is... smiled like a mashimaro... n summore he is their tjc senior... immediately plus so many impression marks...

4.yuting n jingxuan made up mind to learn vocal in muchuan
they will do it rite after their a level... for a quite funny reason...
coz jingxuan felt there was guy very shuai tot she nevq saw the guy before...
anw, glad tat they like muchuan, dun care for wateva reasons...haha...

fuss

2005-07-21T11:15:00.000-07:00

DAILY FUSS...(its gone after tml...)

still cannt fall asleep at such late the night...
happened many things recently... i seems cant get back to the track tat i used to or supposed to be on it...
there r so many things going the opposite direction to tat of u wan...
im still nt used to accept things tat im extremly reluctant to...
the world is nt revolving ard me... i muz go thru the times when the sunshine is nt shined on me...

sumtimes im thinking... wats the diff between love n reliance??

these two resemble to each other too much tat many ppl always mix the two up...
in my context...

love a person... u r willing to give all the things to him or her, even at the expense of sacrificing urself...
rely on a person... u r willing to help him or her whenever he or she in need of a hand...

love a person... u wan to be wif him or her all the time...
rely on a person... u r used to the accompany of him or her...

love a person... u wan to buss his or her seductive lips...
rely on a person... u sumtimes cant help thinking of the feeling tat kiss on his or her adorable face...

love a person... u wan to be as close to him or her as possible...
rely on a person... its used to be veri close to him or her... so it doesnt matter to take one more step forward...

its common to mix the two up...
or love is evolved frm reliance???
coz u found u cant live without his or her breath by ur ears everyday...
u keep calling him or her whenevea u feel lonely...

gosh... hope the person will nt mix the two up... coz i know he is nt only satisfied to be the gd fren of the person... there r more... he wan more of the person...
n the person may wan more out of him...

i know a fren who is used to the accompany of one of her frens...
n her fren is oso used to the accompany of her...
even my fren knows tat its merely possible tat her fren wld nod for being her stead...
n even her fren is oso veri confused...
they r symbiotic to each other... but her fren juz cant make up his mind...
my fren is willing to wait... even its a tiring n hurting way to go...
when they r together, she can steal a feeling tat they r an item...
speaking frankly, im envious of tis kind of state at times... at least she is at a position where nearest to his heart compared to others...
wif the cover of "gd fren", i think i can be closer to the person...
sumtimes reali wan to punch the person... to hate the person...
to hate a person is sumhow easier than to like a person...
im tired n sicked of the situation now...
cant wait to the days i can finally fly out of the person's control...
invisible n unaware control...

(used to write "the person" to refer to the person, at least "she" or "it" or "wat" or "he" cant replace tis unreplaceable name in my heart...)

students gathering

2005-07-17T10:30:00.000-07:00

today went to see the students performance at muchuan...
was actually to support sips, leonard, jingying n yiquan...
met up wif the txy guys n for sum of them i din see for a long tym...
like yiwei ,fengling n xiuhui...
anw, after dined, we went to muchuan...
know sips n leonard hav been practising veri hard juz for tis performance... they both looks quite panick...
sips was walking abt in front of the doors... jingying was oso walking abt outside the muchuan...
obviously they were reali very panick towards the show...

after ah du n guohao sang two songs...
the first dang is sips leonard n the overnite-well known zhenyu(guitarist)...
they reali set a veri nice opening... by means of warm up the atmosphere wif sum sextual related jokes...haha...
both of them performed reali veri well... can see the chemistry is there... unlike sum of the dangs, u can obviously tell they din know each other b4 the students show...
it shld be the best dang of the nite... coz of the chemistry, n of coz the singers...

second dang is yiquan wif other two singers...
i dun know them, but the gal (called peishan or wat...??) dressed in a reali very formal way...
as in... she is the only one dressed the gown among the casual-dressing singers...
anw, its nt the point... coz of her dressing, i sumhow said "she dressed like she is cuming a night club..."
n concisdently, yinzhen (qiumqium's uni fren who sit beside me) know the gal...
n he is her gd fren summore... wat i had made fun of her was heard by him clearly... COZ I WAS TOKING TO THEM ABT IT...
omg... luckily he din care...
but still can feel how embarrased i was...
yiquan oso put up a quite nice show...

as for third dang, I MUZ SAY IM REALI VERY SORRY FOR THE GAL or the "xiao u" called by us...
last nite at muchuan, we heard xiao u practising the songs...
n she is used to turn her voice at a certain point of the songs...
like a u shape...
it was made fun of by us...
however, she is a gd singer... but i juz cldnt stop thinking wat we said abt her last nite...
so when she sing the first song "wo bu nan guo", i almost buried my head into jiahao's bag...
n try nt to shake my shoulders so tat they might know im laughing...
all the ppl ard me were laughing too...
i know its immoral... but i juz cldnt help it...
so i tried to lower my head n sip the drinks... pretent to nt listen her singing...
the whole cup of paradise dream was finished up within the time of one song...
i din even care abt ppl who tried to tok to me...
"bu yao jia jia (dun be fake..)" said the sips...
"chengyao......wuwu...."said the lori...
they were laughing too... n stupid jiahao who kept telling me sumthing funni he found on her...
i even dare nt to see xinrong... coz im sure i will definitely laugh out loud if i see his funni mimic of her...
was quite sad n guilty of it after tat... wat if she saw our reactions?? wat wld she feel??
tot we were nt purposedly doing so... but...
it can hurt her feeling a lot...
definitely....
so for the rest of this dang... i tried my best to listen how she sing but nt wat she sing...
after tat, its the guitar time of guohao n his student...
jingying n yuchin(dun know how to spell his name, n oso forgot his chinese name... isit jianyou or wat???)'s dang was rite after tat...
we went out n encourage her...
but after listen their performance, our encouragement is obviously extra...
they sing reali quite well
especially the yuchin(the guy lah...), he sing damn GD!!!
tot jingying got forgot part of the lyrics but overall oso nt bad...

after the students performance end...
ah du n guohao performanced two more songs...
ah du sing n played keyboard wif his almost numb hands (he played for almost all the dangs of the nite...)...
after xinrong n ah du performed the last two songs...
the day is over...
haiz...monday blue agn...

2005-07-12T09:54:00.000-07:00

stole frm caixun frenster agn... caixun n me act cute... tot i dun wan to say its BEAUTY N BEAST...but i know u might be thinking of it...haha...

2005-07-12T09:52:00.000-07:00

stole the photo frm caixun's frenster... caixun, sips, xiaoying n me @ the lake by suzhou-singapore industrial park...cute cute cute n fat...

2005-07-12T09:35:00.000-07:00

KHAIRIL PLAYING "TRUTH OR DEATH", PUNISHMENT: GO N SIT BESIDE THE OLD MAN FOR 5MINS... MUZ BE VERI CLOSE...THINK THE UNCLE MUZ BE THINKING HOW CUM THE STUDENTS AT PRESENT DAYS SO BOLIAO...

2005-07-12T09:33:00.001-07:00

TWO BDAE BABIES CUTTING CAKE TOGETHER...

2005-07-12T09:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KHAIRIL N THOUFIC...

2005-07-12T09:32:00.000-07:00

zzZZZ...

2005-07-12T09:31:00.000-07:00

LEONARD PLAYING MINI GUITAR...AILEEN!!! HE GOT GALFREN ALREADY LOR....

2005-07-12T09:30:00.000-07:00

TXY GATHERING AT MUCHUAN, ME XIUHUI N ZIJIE... THE HANDICAP ON LEFT HAS NT NECK...

2005-07-12T09:29:00.000-07:00

XIAOYING N ME @SUZHOU KTV, OMG...XIAOYING IM SORRI TO TELL U IM CUTER...(IN TERMS OF ACTING CUTE)...

2005-07-12T09:27:00.000-07:00

4 EXHAUSTED PERSONS...GWENDOLYN, XINYAO, SIPS N BINGRONG... LUJING, R U TRYING TO BE AS CUTE AS RABBIT?? PLS ACT AS UR AGE...HAHA...

2005-07-12T09:24:00.000-07:00

MR BERNARD CHOO PROMOTING A INSTANT NOODLE @ SUZHOU

2005-07-12T09:23:00.000-07:00

WE R SINGING... THE PREGNANT OBASANG ON LEFT WHOSE ARMS MUZ BE VERY PRECIOUS... PIG'S THIGH 10 BUCKS PER GRAM...

2005-07-12T09:20:00.000-07:00

ME, XIAOYING SIPS N BINGRONG @SUZHOU... OMG... IS TAT ELEPHANT'S LEGS???

2005-07-12T09:19:00.000-07:00

XINYAO N ME, ANOTHER CHOSTICKS MAN...@SUZHOU

2005-07-12T09:18:00.000-07:00

BEECHOO N ME, @SUZHOU RESTAURANT

2005-07-12T09:15:00.000-07:00

ME N LORI, CHOPSTICKS MEN!!!

2005-07-12T09:14:00.000-07:00

BINGRONG, SIPING N ME AT HUANG PU JIANG...

2005-07-12T09:13:00.000-07:00

beautiful shanghai...IM THERE!!!!

sips

2005-07-06T09:15:00.000-07:00

suddenly felt how stupid i am...
those things tat will never happen...
i know tat will never happen...
i told myself tat will never happen...
it's a impossible in my life...
IT WILL NEVER HAPPEN...
but im still veri stupid... always secretly expect it to happen...
it wont happen
it wont happen
it wont happen....
i juz cant get tis off my mind...
i still exoect it to happen in my life one day...
if im strong enough, if im stubborn enough...
i think i can lead a more comfortable life...
but i still choose to go on the way tat i know it will never lead to the end i like it to be...
i juz cant pretend nt to see the things happened in my eyes...
hope there is a person who can teach how to give up on a person...

TO sips,
i think i can roughly understand how u experience when the guy who said he doesnt like u...
it's so hard to face wat the truth is....
glad tat u can be his close fren after tat...
at least u gain a fren though u lose e chance to be his stead...

i know once u give up on the hope being his stead, u r able to understand him better, n get close to him as a fren...
the relationship is changed, no more awkard, no more carefulness...

u dont spent a long time to juz send a msg to him, coz u wld read it agn n agn before sending...
try to put urself in his shoes, n guess wat wld he think when he see the msg...
u wont wait for his msg, unlike other frens, if he doesnt reply, u wld start guessing wat is he thinking when he saw the msg...
u hardly dare look into his eyes, afraid to see sumthing u dun wan to see in tat mysterious world...
before u dial his number, u wld reherse the opening speech n wat to say n guess his reply n think how to continue it...
ur heart beating veri fast particularly at the moment he pick up the phone...
sumtimes u will get sumble over ur words...
afraid the situation get COLD... afraid to realise tat there is nth to talk...
sumtimes u even afraid to be alone wif him, coz u dun know wat to tok to him...
u will guess wat is he thinking abt u...
take note on whaevea comments he make on u...
memorise down wateva u find which has sumthing to do wif his character, habits....n so on...
u r afraid u take one more step forward...
u sicked to be stuck at the state now, but u r more afraid to be stepped back if he doesnt accept wat u ask for...
u r annoyed by wateva things abt him, but at the same time, u oso like or r used to collect wateva info abt him...
u wan to know wateva he does... his schedule of everyday...
u wan to be alone wif him.... but oso, u r a bit afraid if there is nth to tok...
u try to find the similarity of u two... or even try to touch on the things he like but u used nt to like...
n after all, u cldnt stop thinking (or expecting, lets say...) of ur future...
u combined all the "ifs" n created various outcums of two of u...
it may be bad, may be gd...
may be a happily ever after, may be a touching tragedy...
in conclusion, u find its so hard to find a free space tats without his shadow in ur life...

dun know if its wat u feel the previous days...
haiz.......
hope u will meet ur true love one day... u will be one of the lucky ones...
gal, u r always very strong...
i saw u go thru so many hard times...
u naver fail to stand up once u r beat down...
jiayou...
maybe u r getting more n more disappointed after the failure of searching for the love one...
but im sure, u will get to be stronger...
i know it may be a piece of shit to u at the present times...
to me as well...
but tats how we grow up...
god bless u, u will find the one who treasure u the way as u do to him...
hope everything turn to be the way u want...
tats the most impt thing i think.......
there will be hurt... definitely... but pls to be strong...
remeber the times u r down, u r the only one who can help urself frm getting out of the muds...
jiayou....

(to yuansen, im nt in a mood to reply wat u said... maybe tml i will tell u wat im thinking abt...)

mr km

2005-07-06T01:46:00.000-07:00

today yuting sms me during the school hour...
she said her bf, ex bf precisely, read my blog n felt very upset towards wat i wrote here...
sum things to clarify here...hey!!mr.km, i know u will see it, so for sum of it is specially writen for u...
wondering why u r called KM??? ask urslef why u call me "SPH BOY" behind me first...

1. i can say i din write anything here... n i dun know what make u so upset either...

2.u may think im the one who stand in the way of ur relationship... im nt interested to ruin ur relationship, but as yuting's best fren, i shld giv her realistic n useful advises!!! since she had made it very clear tat u doesnt suit her... why muz u pester her all the way???

i know u hate me very much, so politeness is nt required...

u look wat u hav done over the days, dont u think u r nearly becuming a psycho??
u added all the frens under yuting's frenster....
n msg one by one...
u added her frens on ur msn who doesnt know u at all...
u show ur anger in front of her n the next moment u cry n beg her for patching relationship...
.......n more n more...
cant u see yuting is getting farer n farer as u getting more n more paranoid???
u cld be a gentleman n end tis unsuitable relationship wif a smile...
at least u will hav a very gd impression in her heart forever...
5 yrs later, or 10 yrs, when she recall abt u, the person appear in her mind is a tender n caring guy she wld never get....

n now, she is so afraid of u... n wat u hav done...
it was a pity if she lose a guy like u.... but now she made a best choice tat leave u early, coz we cant imagine wat will u do if she drag the relationship down.......

pls wake up n face the reality... she doesnt love u anymore....
she used to, as i can tell... at least tis relationship is nt wasted... wat the most precious is the times u two spent together....
n the memories...
i know its hard to face the reality tat the person u love doesnt luv u......
there is sumthing u can pursue...
but there is sumthing u cant...
like love... it's a two way relationship (sounds familiar, da niel??)
it cant move on without the devotion of either side...
n obviously yuting stop giving anything to tis relationship...
she is oso upset to understand tat u r nt the one who can promise her a future she wants...
it's too overboard to tok abt it...
the conclusion is juz tat, she has given up on tis relationship... there is nt point u playing wif urself n pretend to be in luv wif a person who has withdraw...

if only we can be in luv wif a person who luv us oso...
it's reali veri sad to see the one u luv looking at others...
but nt u....
u can find a place n mourn over tis relationship...
but pls giv her wat u can only giv her at last...
tats freedom...
she deserve it, so do u...
adjust ur lifestyle...
the life is still going on with ur rainy mood...
is sad...i wont tell u dun be sad.... coz its hard to put down sth u luv but dont belong to u...

hope it can make u understand wat im thinking abt...
pls off ur hands... two of u r reali nt suitable to go along...

khairil, i promised i will learn the song "bukan cinta biasa" overnight... n sing to u tml...

2005-07-04T03:29:00.000-07:00

amelia n me... haha...

2005-07-04T03:28:00.000-07:00

xiaoying...haha...

2005-07-04T03:27:00.000-07:00

made by weizheng...haha...he especially wan me to say tat it's done by him nt jianhui...anw, thx, weizheng~

NOWADAYS

2005-07-01T11:04:00.000-07:00

its a long tym agn since i last updated my blog...
over the days i did........

school reopen
ok!!!!its reali the last term for me to sprint for my "o" n sec life....
i hav been looking forward to it since sec 1... how i wish i can done my o level n graduate right away by then.... n now it's no much time left....
start missing the days i spent in tis school, evss... i changed a lot... i used to be veri quiet in school coz of communication prob... now i can at least tok to my frens who doesnt understand chinese wif "BROKEN" english... at least improved rite???haha...
i used to hav less frens during sec 1 n sec 2, but after sec3 we reformed our class, i made sum frens whom i will never forget...
khairil, thoufic, aminah, aiysha, boonhoe....
i luv u gyus, u contributed to my beautiful memories of sec life a lot...
tot i was planning to leave tis sentence to the graduation night then tell them... but its ok, at least now they r nt free to even cum n look my blog now...haha...
i met sum gd teachers oso... ms chua, mr sekar, mdm roziana, ms chin, mr fredi....
i think i will never forget the times in evss...
lyk how we copied our hw during recess time for tchers to check later....
i escaped tough club n hided frm mr tahir...
i skipped school coz i overslept...(hopefully it wont be seen by any tcher...)
n oso the study gp we used to hav during sec 3...(dun know why its stopped after sec4)
how we prepared the stall for the "funtasy math n science campaign"...n lastly we won prize of third best stall...
anyway....all these r going into my memories... i will never forget.... the smiles , the tears, the sweat we shed for watevea things happened to our lifes at the same time...
thx u guys... at least i left the school wif a great present, memories.....

baoguan
finally i hav done my part for our huixun, now its only left to be editted by weizheng n amelia n then fa...

muchuan
havnt been to MON-STER dang for two wks...(think next week i wont go oso...) n all tis is juz for being a mugger... k lah, vocal class is still ongoing, but for mon night, i can hardly find time to go clark quay, unless muchuan moved to tampines, then i can go every wk lah~
for my vocal class, still singing fen shou kuai le, still cannot meet the standard, haiz... work harder bah...

today went to sing k box wif yuting agn... she juz finished her block test... now she said she is aimless... n feel very "kong xu"... i reali want to punch her after heard she said tis... if she feel kong xu then go n take part in "o" level tis yr for me yah!!!

anw, my condition today is rather lousy (though yuting said my condition is never gd... ever since she first tyme went to kbox wif me )...
i cant shout my voice out... my throats automatically squeeze when i try to hit those high note...
haiz.... so in the end, i juz lie down on the couch n choose songs for yuting to sing... since she sing so well n her ondition is "QUITE OK"... based on wat she said...

i reali think yuting can go n join vocal class... she has the potencial...
k...im nt a pro musician.... but for wat i know, she has a gd sense of "key".... as in she can adjust the key for diff songs n then quickly adjust the way she singing them...
i need quite a long time to get used to the song n then sing... by then the song is finishing, i think...haha... so i tried nt to change the key for each song...
so after her a level, i muz bring her to muchuan... think she is juz less of pro training...

"u pay the fee for me ah... so ex...." she said...

she oso told me how she got "da shan" accosted by a very handsome, tall, stylish, "sharp-nosed", hav a very accurate slang of english, "rich looks" man... n in the end they exchanged their hp numbers...
"i cant believe "yan4 yu4" tis kind of thing happened on me..."she giggled n giggled...
ok.... i know she is showing of how charming is her to attract such a perfect man...hahahaha...

when we pay the bill, we are "amazed" by the number on the bill...
26plus...
i cld still remeber yuting told me it's veri cheap to sing the afternoon shift if u wear sch uniform...
she came wif eileen many times...

"abt 5 plus lah" she said...

n now i gota pay 13 dollars... wat happened, ong yu ting???
she oso looks veri shocked....
ltr we went to counter n asked them...
they said
"now is still holiday period, the promotion doesnt apply during tis time..."
excuse me??? now is nt holidays anymore k??
wat a persuasive excuse...
haiz... forget it...

tml hav to pay the fee for vocal class... n next wk gotto celebrate birthday for khairil n thoufic... school fee deduction is oso cuming... oh... my wallet.... its going to hav a drastic slim down agn...

juz now chatted wif huifoon... here is the announcement im "requested" to make...

pls catch the "you hua jiu shuo" (lets shoot) next fri night on chanel U...
the special guest including weizheng, caixun, qianqian...
n of coz our MS HWA CHONG INSTITUTION, MS CAMPUS F1, WONG HUI FOON!!!!!
muz watch oh~~^^

over the days

2005-06-25T09:55:00.000-07:00

ok, so the fire between dongdong n me is ceased now...
the outcum is reali very "soap drama"...
the day after we quarreled, i went to baoguan... bingrong n dongdong was there doing the gao as usual... the atmosphere was quite fine all the way... but did still feel a bit awkard when i looked at dongdong or tok to each other...
untill quite late, after bingrong went home n zhicheng came to baoguan, we started toking abt the thing which kept in our minds for a quite while... during the break when zhicheng went gents...
i told her how sad i was when she tok to me last night... n so did her...
we were like confessing sumthing n finally we ended the whole thing up wif a hug...
i know there muz be a BIG "DOTS..." in zhicheng's mind who was sitting beside us...
it's reali very "de......." coz we seldom be so "rou ma" to each other...
anw, it's over...

yesterday went muchuan for vocal lesson...
think i was a bit in form tat day... while the rest three was obviously nt...
oso the first tym i had a quite long conversation wif zhiwei...
he is a quite funny guy i feel..
jiahao zhiwei n i stayed on the stage n played the mic n the sound system so on after the lesson when ah du was conducting another one at basement...
after the dinner, jiahao ah du n i finally sat down n tok abt the moving thing...
basically, we will move out at the end of tis nov... n the ideal location is clementi...
however, jiahao muz hav his brother taken care wif a new gurdian... n his mother has nt reali agreed wif tis thing yet...
so too many potential accidents to confirm...

actually im a bit scared if we move out n stay together...
i know it's nt a easy thing to live wif frens... too many potential friction may be occured...
it happened to me even when i lived wif my sis.... nt to mention frens...
too many things to consider...
too many things to be prevented in advance...
it's nt as easy as to say "lets move out bah~"
but i do still look forward to living wif them... at least i can get total control over my life...
considered halfly independent...

but its reali an exciting thing to live wif frens...
i can invite my frens to my home n hav party together...
a mini gathering place...
but muz consider if they wan my frens to be there...
think it's ok if ppl invited r known among us like siping all them...
but how abt my own frens???
n do they like to watch "kang xi lai le"??? which programme to watch if we hav diff choices??
see!! many quesitons have come forward even when i juz think abt it...

the discussion was disruopted wif the call frm dongdong..
they wanted to watch movie "initial D" n asked me cum along...
it's so ex to watch fri night movie...
they had been bargaining wif me since tat afternoon...
ok, i made a mistake tat i promised them to go tat afternoon, which is juz to make them hang up the phone...
it became a tool for dongdong to threaten me to go...
so gotto leave...
before tat, ah du picked up a call...
din take notice wat was he toking abt... but one of the sentence he said brought my attention...
"ok...then siping can juz live ur place for tonight lor..."
dingdong!!! i bet the call is frm xingrong...
so simple tat who else besides xinrong is close to siping enuf to spent night together among ah du's frens???

then went for movie lah... initial D is quite gd, in terms of the filming skill... nt worse than those japanese production or even hollywood movies...
n yu wen le is so handsome n chen guan xi is rather ok n zhou jie lun has nt gd acting skill n the actress's leg is so thin n long tat dongdong kept exclaiming...
quite funny one, few parts are reali classic...

as for today, spent my last day in baoguan for this holidays... for my txy frens, i think it's a long time for u to see me next tym... gotto "chong" for my "O"...
btw, im going to move agn... to tampines...
over my four yrs in evss, the place i stayed had been getting nearer n nearer to my school...
n now im finally getting to tampines...

aljunied --> potong pasir --> bedok --> simei --> tampinese

for the ending of my secondary life, i can finally live at a place where i dun hav to scare to be late for school every morning...

haiz

2005-06-22T12:22:00.000-07:00

long tym din blog...
quite many things happened over the days...

came back frm china trip
it's a so memorable trip as of the company of dongdong siping bingrong xiaoying weizheng zhicheng meizhu ah bei, minyi n many many more....
quite a interesting one...
especially the nights we spent together wif supper n loads of stuff to chat....
china food so GREAT!!!
n the things so cheap tat i cldnt help buying stuffs like clothes , shoes, blanket n MASHIMARO...
tats it...

still hav to rush on the huixun n the gao for the suzhou trip...
monday spent a night at baoguan n finally get most of the parts of huixun done...
tues also made it to finish the suzhou gao for zaobao...
as for wed...
i had a quite firey quarrel wif dongdong over the gao...
ok, maybe there was a miscommunication in the first place, so the way they write the gao is quite far diff frm mine...
it shld be the first fight we had since we know each other one yr ago...
dongdong had been a nice n farni fren to be wif...
but maybe coz of my unsatisfication on their gao so she got fed up wif it...
i know im nt in a position to get the total control over their gao...
but jinjuan n i r reali under the pressure to let them to produce a gao which meet guanfang n zhiwei's standard...
summore the trip is taken so seriously by the CND department n even the SPH...
n the gao for orientation tis yr reali made them puke out...
we dun wan this kind of thing happen agn...
i know im wrong to be so overreactive... it's nt my own job to write the gao n they also want to make it perfect...
im sorri...
juz now received a sms frm dongdong... she never mention the quarrel... but i know she is showing her concerns over me...
thx n sorri... i sms sth back...
hope the quarrel can be ceased overnight...
haiz...

juz now went to daniel's blog... he wrote a post abt the way to treat fren...
quite touched after read the post...
but my reflection on it might be a bit away frm the theme...
i feel tat frenship cant be asked for intentionally...
it form naturally... u cant be sure of the ppl u will make as frens...
there r always sum ppl u want to go wif but they hav diff frequency frm urs...
TOTALLY DIFF...
they r nice... but they juz cant be ur click...
im nt sure if making fren can go along wif intentions...
i like the life philosophy of dongdong...
she said she wont ask for sth tat doesnt suit her... inclusively frens...
once she feel uncomfortable wif sum ppl or sum things sum places, she will try nt to be wif them agn...
i know i cant be so easy going as her...
there r sth i cant let off... even though its nt sth u can possess...

last night met yunching online... had a chat wif her on tis topic...
we cant realli tok to the point coz we reali got too much craps to tok... n the chatting was kept being distracted by sth like how ex is the stuff in munich...
but thanks her... i felt better after chatted wif her....
got to say we r reali alike... in characters...
i got mention sum situations which help her understand my prob better...
n she kept saying "yes yes yes, yah yah yah...i always feel the same..."
ok...lame ppl r always alike...haha...

it's time to learn how to put down sth u like but doesnt suit u...
im nt a child anymore...i cant hav thing i like juz by crying...
i try nt to be aware of sth... juz let it flow by... but i can still feel the hurt it left...
as if there is a lemon squeezed in ur heart...
i want to hav sth which is of others now...
JEALOUSY
yes, jealousy...
now im finally clear of the thing im annoyed...
but so wat??...............

2005-06-10T00:32:00.000-07:00

before tis, the waiter had cum b reminded us of the last song to sing~ was going to leave but yuting still want to finish her last song, "qian nian zhi lian", FIR, carried the bag alreadi, juz be prepared to run away once the waiter cum agn n drive us away~

2005-06-10T00:29:00.000-07:00

see ur beautiful sitting posture, yuting~

2005-06-10T00:26:00.000-07:00

lazy to update blog... wif my buddy, rebecca to sing kbox... she sing damn gd!!!!! she was cuming accross the annoying incident abt his bf~~

..............................

2005-06-06T23:18:00.000-07:00

when sth u like is claimed to be others, wat would u do for urself...
it's so hard to lose ur hands n let it off, even though it was never urs...
i tried my best nt to see wat happene to it...n sumone who own it now...
i can still smile n joke ard...
wif it, wif its owner
tats the max i can do...
turn ard, when i cant put on my smile anymore...
oh shit....
im confused...
is it possessiveness or love...??!!

......

2005-06-06T22:15:00.000-07:00

im reali a sopilt child
want to possess everything i want...
i angry
i upset
juz becoz i dun hav sth tat others should hav
it may nt belongs to me
but i juz want to hav the everything of it
thanks the world
i lost the skill of crying for things...
i care how ppl look at me
i dress myself the way as if im gd, fine
but inside
it's the shouting n jealousy for the things im looking at
im ok
the world judge me wif this comment...

2005-06-02T09:57:00.000-07:00

my fatty n stupid look, geraldine sitting beside me n talk sth wif ferdy...

2005-06-02T09:56:00.000-07:00

on meeting wif ferdy n gelradine~was acting one, coz i dun want the very formal one tat everyone gather together n say "cheez~~"

holidays juz open

2005-06-02T09:16:00.000-07:00

SUN was at baoguan n help lingying huixun n caixun's labels out~
lingying finally published the huixun, the one considered the best after the new yr of zhongyang~
i reali muz praised the quality of the lingying huixun for tis month, both on the efforts n the outcum~
saw jianhui tat day, he was still very crappy, n knows tat he is flying to paris tis june n do a interview wif ZHANG MAN YU~~
OMG!!!!!zhang man yu yeh~~i watched her movie since i was very young~ i cldnt even dream of seeing her, no to mention talk to her...
wah...so jealous...
at the halfway, aileen n hansen came to baoguan n help us~ were actualli to talk abt the sentosa trip next month, but it seems nt the topic of the day, but printing labels n huixun...
to let lingying print the huixun without any prob like running out of ink or blah blah blah, caixun was driven to zaobao to print her labels~
n we took sum stupid photos there, wif aileen n hansen~ as u can see below, the rest will be post when hansen book out tis weekend~

juz then, a boy of sports txy came to the copier n want to use it for a short while~ he looks like u mao very much~ wondering if he is xu mao bro~ i brought him to search for available copier as the one we used was encounting tech failure (aileen n i was trying very hard to fix it, but it was solved by caixun wifin 2 seconds, she juz off it n on agn...haha...)...

when we finished our printing, siping was still folding the huixun wif lingying babies, n of coz jianhui sitting there reading newpaper~ she was extremely late for ther vocal lesson tat day~ so rite after finished, she rush to muchuan...
chatted wif aileen hansen caixun n bingrong at the mac, treats of caixun for our helps~haha~~
had quite fun tym~

MON was going to fetch dongdong at abt 6am but she arrived s,pore ealiy so she went home first... then went to embassy of china to get my travel permit while dongdong gota renew her passport~ dined at cini n, along the way, teased at a young couple as they kept appearing in our eyesigh~ they muz be very sad coz it's nt their wrong to be seen by us n we juz cldnt stop imaging their probally background... as in talking bad abt their family members...
quite weird as how cld we enjoy imaging how their background n their family members to be but it juz US...dongdong bingrong n me

met the daughter of my mom's fren n her boyfren, brought her ard at orchard n had lunch wif them... was going to keep them accompany but they seemed want to get alone themselves so i juz left for library, took a nap, then went to bugis to meet my frens for the radio meeting...

only ferdy gelradine nick n desmond present for the meeting, we talked abt our radio programme n the schedule, respective time slot... took sum photos, post up here...
i was assigned to be the programme adviser, in which im the most sian one, coz they know i was preoccupied wif baoguan stuffs n studying n muchuan~ wat i need to do is juz to commet on their programme proposal~
quite excited abt it, but i havnt installed the programme required into my com, so tis week nick will replace me as my slot host...

went to muchuan after tat~
was quite special as there were so much ppl, n most r frm ximei's dun-know-wat boat, her frens~
n the dang was lyk a concert, they so high, kept shouting n joking wif the mon-ster~
first tym saw jianhua do a very exaggerated face, as he extent his jaw down n eyebrow up, when joking wif them... hardly seen after he went down the stage~
after tat went for pool lah, the most interesting activity~ on the way, exchanged sum jokes wif meilian n she has a damn funni joke...

one day, a prostitute was on the street in search for job opportunity...
juz then, a man approached n looks very hesitated...
the prostitute asked "wld u like to hav the sex wif me??"
"but my there (dick, i mean) very small...."
the prositite though for awhile
it's juz an case anw, can get money after all
then she replied, "it's ok, lets go to the dark alley there...."
they went into a very dark alley
when they were putting their clothes off, going to hav sex, the guy reached out his hands...
he hold the prostitute's hand n bring it to his dick, let her touch his dick....
then the prostitute said,
"sir, i dun smoke yeh..."

hahahahahahahahahahaha, it was reali the joke of the day!!!!
or maybe wifin tis yr, it's ranked the most finniest joke i heard...hahaha...first tym found meilian is a such funny man~
had a very fun tym there, during the time siping n ah du them went out to buy tibitzs, played two rounds of NINE balls wif xingrong~
had a reali gd tym tat day...
typical monday, as siping said juz now at TM...

2005-06-01T17:49:00.000-07:00

wif caixun at zaobao "hall" when she was printing the labels...haha...lyk it a lot, quite funni one...

2005-06-01T17:47:00.000-07:00

stole the photos frm hansien's blog, haha...siping, aileen, me n bingrong, wat r u doing, siping??i tot we said muz do grimace de~hahaha~

sunday

2005-06-01T05:54:00.000-07:00

sat went to baoguan n help do the suzhou trip stuff...
quite stressed n tiring, but finally finished the info of ppl going
if there is any error of the info of a certain person, the whole gp muz be delayed n wa wat wat...
so cant do it carelessly... haiz...
today was also the breifing on the trip, so those non-txy students were oso there to attend the breifing...one of the ppl i muz metion is ZHOU YI WEN tat gal...
Ok, i hav nth to comment on her on her behaviour or attitude or wat...
juz bcoz she is dongdong's fren n she knows wats the nickname dongdong always call me...
i dun reali like the nick, but it's ok if is only known among dongdong n luzhuo...or plus the "da mei nv, xiao mei nv" sisters, of dongdong's roomates...
but how cum she knows it!!!!!!!!
she was ok in the first place, when i saw her i asked her, "u r dongdong's fren, rite??" see im so frendly....
but after awhile, after she sat on the floor listening the briefing, she suddenly turn to me,
"r u hippo??"
she asked me as if im reali looks like a HIPPO n she was confused wif my identity, HUAMN or HIPPO???
"IM NOT!!!shut up n listen!!!"
she turned back then...
after a while, she turned to me agn...
"u r zhang cheng yao rite??"
"yah..."
"then u r hippo mah?!"
"SHUT UP!!"
she turned back agn, damn dongdong, how cld she spread everything of me to her frens...summor i dun know her...
but, haiz, tis suzhou trip muz ask her to buy sum shanghi snacks before she meet up wif us...
so, haiz....it's so hard to be a human...

after tat went to muchuan for vocal lesson, todae we still practise the fen shou kuai le...
sing one by one n commented by ah du...
after tat went to dinner wif jiahao n ah du...
they r reali a pair of twins mah!!!!!
they hav too many things in common, along the way, they cldnt stop looking for the similar life experiences or attitide or any habit... like they both like banana milk, hate snake, even human (beofre lah), n hate being alone...
n of coz there still got lots... in the end, they simply acknowleged each other as god brothers... n bend their arms around each other's shoulder...hahaha...
but it's reali an exciting thing to find a person who has many aspects r same as u...
it sumhow reminded me of yunching, haiz... so miss her yah... n another gd fren was leaving for canada after o level oso...haiz...
went to cini n taka n was driven away to ps by the sea of the ppl...
dined at the ps basement foodcourt n mos burger, n looked ard untill abt 10plus...
we left for the places we going
why muz i say tat?? coz i was leaving for queenstown where siping n xinrong were dining...
xinrong still very funni especially pair up wif siping, i mean, when they sit together, thier conversation is very funni...
haha...
after tat, went home wif siping...
on the way, she showed me how she n xinrong had a pillow fight n the ou cei on her hands by xinrong's pinching...
haha..
a tiring day was passed....wow...

2005-05-29T23:45:00.000-07:00

SO friday went to cini n attended the "in the spot light--the story of the sport stars in s,pore"...
it's juz an street event... anyway, when playing the game, i was saboed by the giant weizheng n played a round of table tennis game wif dun-know-who... n got a goodie bag... u wont believe wats the book they gave... juz a story book... the author is a local writer......
has nth to do wif SPORTS anw...
the quite mentionable thing is tat.... when huifoon huimei yijun xingdan zhicheng shiling n caixun took camera n went ard looking the stars to take photo wif... we found a person who "looks" like a sport player... so we went to him n requested for taking photo together... after tat, i went back the table wif my food on it (there is a free buffet btw...)... guanfang stand beside me n told me
"u all so realistic... after took a photo then dumped him alone there..."
it's obvious a joke, but i dun know wat spurred me i immediately went up to him n.....
"hello!! wats ur latest plan recently???"
"........"he looked at me saying nth...(the place is too noisy so i simply bent my head forward n tok into his ears...)
"what is ur next match to be???"
"it's at august... at beijing..." HE REPLIED!!!
i then shake hand him, caixun did so as well... n left...
then went back to guangfang...
"see!! i went to HALA wif him le...."
"wat did u tok to him?"
"juz asked when is ur next match n blah blah blah..."
"i cant believe it... how cld u do such a embarrased thing... so diulian...."
"........" now i knew tat how awkward i was to do such a thing...
if i was him, i wld think inside "who is tat weird pig cum frm???"
n I TALKED STH TO HIM...
but anw, it's nt the first tym n i wldnt expect it to be the last tym...

btw, SHILIN, YILIANG, I SWEAR I WILL NOT MIX TWO OF U UP AGN !!!!...HAHAHA...

after tat zhiwei asked us to suntect city to look the book fair there...
n we reali LOOKED THE BOOK FAIR...
means we juz went to check the zaobao booth there n then dismissed......
we went ard in the book fair for awhile... then decided to leave...
when we were abt to walk out of the convetion hall, caixun's hp ring off...

guanfang said there is a lobang tat we can work...

after we listened it, we instantly ran into the convention hall agn...
even the knee injury huifoon... WE RAN BACK TO THE CONVENTION HALL n went up to the commercial hall...
aunt cyndi was there, wif guanfang n zhiwei....
our work is to sale a 25BUCKS tickets to strangers... ticket to a workshop tat ms zhang chun chun teach u how to slim down... wage is the 1buck out of 25 for one ticket...

it's almost a mission impossible... how cld u sale tis kind of ticket to strangers???
if the person is thin, she wld say "im so thin alreadi, do i need to go tat kind of course??"
if the woman is fat, she may think "r u implying tat im FAT so in need to go tis kind of workshop???"
we were reali in a hard position to sale the tickets.... n one of the women i asked did even say SHE IS RUSHING FOR A MOVIE IN THE BOOK FAIR HALL!!!!
A MOVIE IN BOOK FAIR HALL....
............
so we went back wif a full set of tickets...

played pool wif yiwei n huanlin at cini... had a quite fun time...after tat had supper at the basement foodcourt... the shilin crispy chicken auntie reali killing me... i stood n waited so long juz for a crispy chicken... how slow is her....

sat i went to baoguan n muchuan... but im too tired so lets tok abt it on next post....

2005-05-29T06:04:00.000-07:00

SIPING'S HAND, yes!!! it's her hand....the part circled wif red is the "ou cei", "spoil" which shows tat siping had a "great war" wif xinrong in his room...hahahaha....

2005-05-29T05:45:00.000-07:00

wif mr wu qiu bin(isiz his name??) anyway, an martial artist... we din even know who is he but went to take foto wif him juz bcoz he looks lyk one of the sport star... n think he din expect the two persons on his right hand side wld go n tok sum craps to him juz out of a bet...

2005-05-29T05:39:00.000-07:00

wif huang wen hong...zhicheng u closed ur eyes!!! huimei why u put ur hands on caixun shoulder tis way...as if u r the mother of caixun n huifoon...

2005-05-29T05:37:00.000-07:00

we wif mr remy ong... shiling... i cant see u...

singing session

2005-05-27T09:56:00.000-07:00

spent half of the day at baoguan...
was actually to help them pack goodies bags for the event tml... the event was like... for u to meet sum sport stars like lee jia wei n ramey wong n so... n play sum games wif them... "sounds" very interesting.....

i asked xiuhui n yiwei these two sian ppl to cum down n help pack goodie bags... they r still on holidays... why uni students so free??
coz zhiwei was running ard wif a group of students for the first few "hrs"... so until like 4plus, he came back n instructed us wat to do... before tat caixun had came down to do her labels...

she juz came back frm hongkong... n she is reali a bai jin nv, mammonist, spent 4000$ in one week!!!! pls take note, its 4000 sin dollars nt ren min bi... wah... based on wat she said, she n her frens everyday went ard n shop thoese branded shops n crazily buy watever tat want to buy...
mai dong xi chi dong xi, mai dong xi chi dong xi...
she until now still cant forget the taste of hongkong diamsin... n the an-dao, stylish n handsome guys walking in the street... hahaha... she reali had a veri gd time there...

after "works", da niel suggested to go for party world at bishan... coz he got a free 4 hrs voucher... (reali found a rite person to cum le...muhahahahaha...)
we dined at long john at j8... n chatted on how to maintain relationship between n ns guy n his gf... n of coz including caixun hongkong trip...

ard 7pm, arrived at party world... we were like shouting n playing n joking when we were singing... temporary forgot siping's advice tat "singing muz be serious"... haha...
it's the first few times xiuhui went to ktv... n she was nt tat kind of ppl who like singing n hardly pass the mic to others... but for tis time, she made a first exception... sang few songs alone wifout accompany of yiwei ... wow... haha... caixun was like so "high"... cldnt stop standing up n doing a lot of posture or dancing when singing... like a mini concert of hers... haha...
can relax myself n juz sing wat i want to sing... previous times singing wif siping n shimei... was a bit panicked n as if i cant sing wrongly... or in short, we were "practising"... hahaha... plus they r so gd singers... haha... but im nt saying tat caixun n xiuhui sing very bad lah... as in... haha...(<--dry laugh...)
yiwei is such a powerful singer... caixun kept shouting "oh shit!!" when she sing wrongly or out of tune... haha... so in the end, once she sing wrongly, the rest will automatically say "shit!" for her...

the climax of the nite shold be the second last song, shan zhe lei guang de jue ding by wu pei ci... haha... it was a very old song n i first heard tis song was at my age of 12 or so... huax... such a long tym le... n caixun n da niel happened to like tis song, so we were more lyk almost shouting the lyrics during singing it... din even care the our tempo went wrong...haha...
took sum photos after tat n then went home...
think tats the all for todae... anything missed will be post up later...hahaha...

2005-05-27T09:45:00.000-07:00

xiuhui at "duck shop"... she putting one $10 note into my cloth...

2005-05-27T09:43:00.000-07:00

caixun at "duck shop"... sit like a shao nai nai summore...

2005-05-27T09:42:00.000-07:00

two chio bu n one pig acting cute...

2005-05-27T09:41:00.000-07:00

yiwei at "chicken shop"... zou yong you bao...haha...

2005-05-27T09:40:00.000-07:00

caixun posing like a singer... its juz one of the various...

2005-05-26T09:46:00.000-07:00

jiahao bdae celebration at muchuan, jiahao n another bdae gal were on the stage n jianhua was toking to e gal... n was the gal flirting to jiahao?? seems so... haha...

2005-05-26T09:44:00.000-07:00

sports day, silei, tingjie, me, mingen, huimei, ligen n wenjing... i was closing eyes n where was wenjing looking at??

2005-05-26T09:41:00.000-07:00

yifeng, xiaohan, bingrong n xiuhui, where was i?? the one who took pic lah!! (rubbish..=.=!!)

2005-05-26T09:39:00.000-07:00

xiaohan concert... xiaohan, bingrong, xiuhui n me... xiaohan so beautiful tat day n my face is so oily~

updating

2005-05-26T08:38:00.000-07:00

lets talk abt the things happened all these days bah...

school result
in short, i din do so well for my mid-yr, a math n science failed is expected, the rest r performed so-so... emath passed, juz dun like the tcher who went thru the paper... she spent almost 45 mins to go thru the first 7 qns....
n frankly speaking she doesnt reali know how to explain n go thru the paper, she put too much focus on SLANGING... yes, slanging...
take an example, when she say, "before i move on to...", she muz pronounce the "rai" between "before" n "i"...
it's ok for her to do so, but it's too obvious tat she very casiouly stress sum pronounciation which shldnt be heard when a normal person talk...
she cld hav tok like a normal ppl... but she juz wanted to show sth like slanging accent n show how gd is her english... n it's well known tat she is nt gd at english at all...
i like ms suhila... she is the one take the ms slanging' turn n go thru the rest of the paper... the way she tok is very short n clear... i like it, so do the rest...
ok... i know im nt in a position to complain abt it as my english is worse... much worse... god knows my oral prelim is on next tuesday...
human ok, i know my geography is a piece of waste paper... my fren told me i get 24 for my social studies SEQ... 25 full marks...
so surprised... but i still get 60 plus for my combine human... so my geo muz be very poor...
english juz passed... so much ppl failed tis time... so quite satisfied... haha...

sports day
to prepare for the sports day, last fri i stayed overnite at baoguan wif dongdong n bingrong...
it's so fun... we went out to buy sum tibitzs n instant noodles to eat at midnite... n had very fun chatting time... both of them r funni jokers...

however, din manage to finish wats supposed to be finished... so the day after tat in which sat, stayed until 1am, juz to finish the logistics wif xiaohan n yifeng... will never get bored doing works wif 2 of them... they juz cldnt stop joking ard n arguing... as u know, the way they argue is reali hilarious... or even comical... super match couple r they...

sports day finally cum... it's quite a success... everyone had quite fun time... n oso met sum ppl whom long tym never see... like xianzhu, xiubin n luzhuo...

the station games in morning is a bit unorganised... n sum stations r reali very boring... as in the comments made by sum ppl... but glad tat everyone still had a gd time...
afternoon, we had our captain's ball competition... rui ying was defeated by qun ying... they so strong, i got to say... n they reali play rough... but it's for the proud of the group after all...
when competing wif syd/cff, they play against the team made up of yingguan like liuzhen, aileen, xiaohan, weilai, eileen, hansen n me... haha... it's so fun... silei played so hard... so as the other ppl... but anway, we din smell any gunpowder as we compete wif other groups...
the final is qun ying against lingying... qun ying won at the end... shimei get hurt during the game... now she has stiffneck... until next mon she still has to move her whole body juz in order to turn to a side...
play piggybacking game in between, i carry aileen n weilai carry siping... ran short run... n then i carry jiashuai aileen carry xiaohan... i won le...hahaha... jiashuai u so light...haha...

the hide n see oso very fun... silei, siping n tingjie can go n nominate the "best actress"... they act like they r nt involved in the game when other came forward n reveal their status
the game is basically tat every group will receive a set of clues n muz use it to search for a ppl in the txy family... they will get two sets, one is the specific one tat each group has to find out before use the second set of clues to find out the final one tat every group aiming for...
we secretly contacted each so-called "culprits" tat which group will look for him or her... n during the actual day, cannot easily let other ppl find out she or he is the one certain group ppl are looking for...
silei siping n tingjie reali very "acting"... untill the last moment they were still able to psycho the group to search for another ppl...
tingjie shld be the winning one... coz lingying is the gp to look for tingjie... when xiaoying saw the clues in hand n cldnt figure out who is the person she supposed to catch... tingjie went to her n pretend to "help" xiaoying to find the person...
god knows the person xiaoying deperately looking for was right standing beside her...
hahahaha...

the bbq is quite fun oso... we shared our food wif one another... n built up the frenship between each qps... it's reali very glad to see so many newbies initially came to each groups n share sth wif them... went to play basketball wif tingjie, simin, fanda, yuzhi, huifoon, yijun, mingen, hansen...etc in the halfway... so fun... the so called "chung ching gang" went against the "anti-chung ching gang"... n the funni huifoon disguised as a chong ching student n join the chung ching gang... u ashamed dumanian... hahaha...

saw gladys... haha... still so funni.. wat a pity yanyi was nt there, otherwise the S.H.I.T can reunite le, since silei n i was there...haha...
yifeng was going ard bagging for food... haha...
saw jianhui on tat day... said hello to him n he din reply anw... lost of words.........

got to know sum ppl or know sum ppl more... especially those newbies... they so cute...haha... like simin fanda wangdan jeffrey... n more n more... of coz included the cutest ruiying newbies lah...^^
xinyao arrived at evening... heard she changed her working department frm straitstime to newpaper... haha...
had reali fun time... n oso very tiring day...

jiahao bdae celebration
the following mon is jiahao bdae... siping leonard songyu shimei.... n i planned to giv him a surprise...
n my job is to pull him into muchuan after 7:30... it's so hard.. man...
he kept asking why cant go earlier why cant go earlier.. haha...but in the end, he seemed to understand wat on earth we were trying to do... coz he started keeping quiet after abt 6plus when we were going to muchuan... met da-niel n his dear, fenglin at toa payoh... they juz returned frm taiwan trip... chatted ard 30mins while they finished their dinner at tpy...
then went to muchuan lah... as the normal routine... same opening speech of mon-ster... only diff is tat bingrong made his first time to muchuan... he seemed to like tat place a lot... it's nt a long time frm seeing him become our vocal classmate...hahaha...

during the performance, they paused a while, n invited the two bdae babies of the day up to the stage (wil post the photo up here)... one of them is jiahao lah... they sang a happy birthday song together... haha... jiahao was so shy on the stage... haha...
in the meantime, siping brought a chocolate cake out n shared it ard the whole muchuan... like the feeling tat as in all the ppl in muchuan were like a family liddat...^^
ah du performed a song, the theme song of xian jian qi xia zhuan, for jiahao... gosh... song yu oso played the game n is a fan of the game like us... summore he bought the vcd of the drama series tat adapted frm the game... wow!!!!!!!!! muz borrow frm him... hahaha... so cheapskat ah me... haha..
after tat went for pool, had oso a very fun time there...

wat going to do
todae went china embassy n renewed the travel permit... the procedures was much faster than i expected... so spent a whole afternoon at geylang east library... slept n woke up n slept n woke up... untill 5 plus then went home

finally cleared my 39 dollars library fine... haiz... broke ah me... received a call frm jiahao he said he want to go clark quay n ask ah du abt sth abt the budget air... was asking me to go along n then said no need le no need le... dun know wat on earth was he doing??? like going on a mysterious date wif him liddat...hahahahaha...

but anw, jiahao is going back taiwan for abt 1 week... haiz... so bored if he left... lucklily he din go back for one month... then short of a fren to play wif le...

dongdong is oso going back beijing for abt 4 days... then cum back on next mon... seeing her off on thurs night... dun know tat rich ppl r doing wat... buy a ticket n juz go back for few days... nt worthwhile at all mah... especially dongdong, she is oso going on the su zhou trip wif txy during june holidays... as if she going back home like going to another block behind her home liddat... haiz... once think tat she is leaving for canada after o level, im like so sad.... haiz... dongdong yah dongdong... can u stay here for juz another 2 yrs?? how cruel r u... dump me alone here... haiz...

was going to sing kbox wif rebecca(yuting) n eileen (minwei) tml... but minwei suddenly said she wiill be on another matter tml... first time called their ang-moh name, so fresh...haha..
so the kbox session postpone to next week lah... never sing kbox wif minwei before... shld be very fun oso...haha..

why am i so free recently??? coz school is doing a "mother tongue drilling" for the sec 4 students for the impending "o" level... since i hav finished my o level chinese n tchers dun want me to sleep infront of the students during the class, so i, excused frm school lah...haha...
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juz be happy... even though there is still sth i cant take it or nt going in my way... juz look ahead... juz want to tell myself...

eeeeeeeeeee.....

2005-05-23T21:32:00.000-07:00

DISGUSSTING!!!!!!

I WAS PITYING MYSELF......

SO DISGUSTING!!!!!

so wat if other ppl dun take me seriously?? so wat if i was nt as gd as others?? so wat if i lose n see they r smirking inside their stupid, fake, ass sickening faces?? i dun hav to worship anyone, anything... im the god of mine, im the one i myself worship to, im the one im...
....................

haiz....................

gumble of the day

2005-05-23T20:06:00.000-07:00

it's been a long time since i updated my blog last time....
i was nt planning to leave tis blog as a ruin for another 4 months...
anyway, happened sth recently.... abt frens abt family n many many many things else...

it's nt the first time, but thanks music this invention, which saved me frm drwoning in this disappointing world agn n agn....

羅美玲愛一直閃亮

我一個人的沙發上　
還有你擁抱的力量起身才看見孤單的形狀　
在空氣裡曝光明明是咖啡不加糖　
怎麼喝還是懶洋洋
你不在的天氣裝了開關　
碰到天亮就黑暗
我以為愛一直閃亮　現在剩一個人堅強
想念在手中　張開變翅膀　我還懂不懂飛翔
我看見愛一直在閃亮　想逃的心改變了方向
只因這城市情歌太悲傷　
才讓一碗熱湯　紅了眼眶
電視裡愛情播不完　怎麼轉才能離開現場
如果我承認你讓我很難忘　結局能不能換

first time listened tis song is frm a chinese drama series "frens" (ming yang si hai)
was crying crying n crying when i watched a part which is saying tat a guy who went to acknowleged a childhood fren, very gd fren, who had been a super star...
it's known tat the guy love the gal since they were young
but the gal has been in a relationship wif a man, a rich n wif status, so she try to be cold towards the guy... even though the gal knows tat she love the guy deeply....
but for fame, for money... or for everything realistic or wat... the gal turned the guy away...

when getting older n older, i found it's harder n harder to find a person or even a fren whom u can tell ur words frm the bottom of ur heart to...
i dun know why.... i used to share my unhappiness wif my frens... but now, i cant do so wif too many scruples...
reminded of sth mr.hong said, existentialism...
which means the value of a person is based on the assessment made by others...
it's very pesimistic... but it's a truth...
tats why we always pursue the fame... money... beauty... social... n everything tat represent a status in the society...
im nt so desire for those things... but i strongly believe the exsitence of existentialism...
i saw it frm my fren, frm my family, ppl ard me, n even myslef...
i though i can always lead a live the way im...
but i cant... wif the assessment, i cant even be myself... or even sth called "comparing"...
i know i set a higher expectation for myself, but why there still sum ppl think it's fun n interesting to compete wif me...
do they juz want to see the face i was defeated??
they juz want to show sth off in front me...
im sure the ppl i meant will nt read my blog... so dun think u were the person i meant...
hard to say, juz few days ago, a person i will never expect him to read my blog did so...
drop tis topic...

i think too much...
lets categorised wat i said today into the "gumble of the day"...
i dun want u to think too much, or try to figure out who r the persons i meant...
ur curiousty abt this thing will make me feel more n more uncomfortable in front of u, or awkarwd...

xiaohan vjc choir

2005-05-18T08:22:00.000-07:00

WENT to watch xiaohan school, victoria junior college, choir concert at esplanade wif xiuhui n bingrong!!!

mid-aged man v.s angela zhang
it's actually juz a fuss made on my way to cityhall... coz it was peak hours so the train was reali full of commuters n all the ppl sitting on the bench were like squeezing themsleves so as for all the seats to be occupied, dun know is it coz an extra person obstinately squeeze into the human row or there were one or two more persons fatter than me (i wont say its my fault anyway)... i felt expecially crowded than usual...
a man, mid-aged, officeman in a suit wif a briefcase in his hand, dress in a very formal or rather "office" wear, a lil bit bald, can smell a bit after-shave frm his body (c...so crowded).... was listening i-pod...

it's ok or normal for a man to listen i-pod... but it's a totally converse if he is listening a song "ou ruo la" by zhang shao han....

of coz a man, mid-aged n mature man, can listen zhang shao han's song... n even get fascinated by her... (he listened the song repeat n repeat...)
but i juz felt a bit... dun know how to describe my feeling properly... dun feel tat a man should be placed beside the singer like zhang shao han...
if today he listen songs of sum singers like zhang xue you, liu de hua n so on... i wont be so fussy n...yah...
i might say he is juz in nostalgia... but now he is listening zhang shao han...
it made me recall sth i heard in the past... those mid-aged man whose heart is actually very vulnerable... coz they were nt young anymore... they cant compete wif those young men in sports like the past... they especially feel self-inferior towards youngsters n young gals... so they will try to show off watevea they hav in front of the girls... to gain their admiring attention as well as confidence!!! n generaly, those young girls r easily getting fascinated by those "mature" men in their eyes... tats why it's very common tat many young office ladies "gao3" up (in relationship) wif their male boss...
anyway, it's juz a daily grumble as wat i mentioned juz now......

impressive concert
met up wif xiuhui n bingrong, dined in bk n bought a bouguet of flowers for xiaohan...
yifeng was there oso but we were extremly too late so din bother to find him... no reception in the concert hall oso... the reception personel was giving us an unbearable look...
the performance is reali very impressive... no wonder they can represnt singapore to german for choir olympic n won a championship (forgot is champion or wat...)
was noticing every action xiaohan did so din bother much abt their performance in the first half part... the guy standing besides her looks quite handsome but was doing sum exggerated actions all the way... wondered if he is trying to seek more attentions or wat... but he was smiling brightly when stand beside xiaohan... dun know wat was yifeng feeling by then... haha...
xiaohan looks veri beutiful tat day... n soooo many chio bu in vj... no wonder qiaoqiao... hahaha... based on xiaohan info, she is nt in choir...

the seating arrangement of us is quite a bit weird... we sit facing the back of the front person... but the stage is in the 10 o'clock direction frm us... it's like we sit in the past train... n look out of the window like tat... can u imagine??

utill the last half part, they changed to chong-san n qi-pao n sung chinese songs (finally i can hardly understand wat their lyrics r...) xiaohan worn a pink qi-pao... the atten-seeker was in a red (it's hard to nt fix ur eyes on him... plus i hav to look at the xiaohan besides him)

for first time i felt the charm of choir... the coherence of diff pitch of voices reali made me goose bumps... impressingly fantastic...
u can hear the diff of each note but it's nt perplexed or wat... their claps... filliping... n blowing sound can be mixed perfectly wif their vocal n becum soooo beutiful...

it's defintely diff frm the music i heard frm muchuan, frm ah du, xingrong meilian n jianhua......
if their voices r the perfect definition of the man-made love in mordern society, the choir is more to nature... like the sounds frm mountain valleys or gorges or wat... it's purely natural... pop songs r to suit our loneliness at present days... they sing our touchingness out of our heart...
but choir is purely peaceful.....
no man-made mixture... the touching can only be felt when u close ur eyes n stay in a space where only u n the sounds r exist...
touched.... reali very touched...
they sang sum songs like "wo zhi zai hu ni" by deng li jun n sum chinese folks like "lu dao xiao ye qu"... their definition is extremely diff frm the usual songs tat the melody is built up by musical instruments... both r fantastic... but the tastes r totally diff...
human sounds is an instrument itself... it reminded me of wat ah du said before...
n human sounds is charming...
reali....

till the end, they presented a song which they picked for the syf few month ago... it is like to perform the birds flying abt in the forest... thick forests...
when the birds were like all flying up...(<---my imagination), they expressed the clapping sounds by clapping on their clothes... n it's perfectly expressed...
impressed....

after performance, saw yifeng n gladys outside the concert hall... dedicated our flower to her...than we left....
tired but a meaningful day...

ktv session

2005-05-17T11:52:00.000-07:00

AFTERNOON... i went to meet jiahao n siping at china town mrt for the ktv session later...
jiahao is first one arrived... seems he cant wait for the singing...
waited for abt 30mins... dear ms siping n mr leonard came... on the way siping was guessing i would be late as USUAL (huh..???!!!)...haha...
we dined at the food court near to the mrt station... wif siping n leonard ard, the topics for chatting is hardly unrelated to singing... haha...but who doesnt like singing neh??

singing
meeting up wif shimei in front of the party world... found tat the party world was actually the "cha ren zhi jia" tat my sis brought me to cum last yr... the inetrior design changed a bit but can still tell it was cha ren zhi jia before...
so we started having our crazy times!!!!!
sung songs one by one... n ppl join one after another... after weili came, yiquan arrived... followed by songyu... i sung few songs but still nt as gd as the rest... apparently i had to practise more...

the most funni moment is when xingrong arrived... as xingrong is the only muchuan singer on tat nite n he is reali a very skilled n powerful singer... so everyone was so panic when siping came down to catch xingrong...
why is it so scary tat singrong cum?? the next moment i found the answer...
when songyu was singing, xinrong stared at him as if he is going to eat him up like tat... haha... so r the rest... everyone is overshadowed when xingrong is here...haha...
but im sure everyone had a very fun n gd time there... either thru singing or chatting or joking ard...hahaha...

super n pool
after tat we went for supper.... tat was 11pm plus by then... we ate sth in china twon food street... although i cldnt reali join their chatting session as i was reali ill-informed of the things in muchuan... haha... or maybe i was too young to joke ard wif the adults there...hahaha... but anyway, it's reali very fun n i did reali like the feeling tat everyone stay together...

xingrong still din want to go home... so they called up ah du n jian hua whom were still in muchuan... siping suggested to go play pool... shimei weili n yiquan went home first coz they got to wake up early the next morning... (though i had to oso, but who wants go home so early??)
by the time ah du n jianhua came, shimei was showing sth to jianhua n siping was like trying to block her... n it was stopped by ah du...hahaha...ah du hugged siping behind her like a sweet couple like tat... hahaha... din know wat is tat so i din know why siping was so agitated oso...haha..
anyway, after everything settled, which means jianhua saw the photo, we went for pool...
songyu was going to bring us to a pool shop near to the china town food street... but based on his bro's info... the pool shop was mergered wif yam cha...haha... so we had only to a pool shop which is a bit farer...
it's so fun to play pool wif xingrong n siping...etc..xingrong was like a sports channel commentator... used mixed english n hokkien to commentate the games... like "the cue ball gana block the ball number 11" or "giv the man a tiger..." like tat.. i was cracked up by his funni comments... especially when ah du play the pool, he is used to rub the front part of the cue before play, xinrong decribed every single action ah du did... n the rubbing part was described like.... (censored contents...hahaha...)..haha..
he did oso name jianhua "mr.skinny", ah du "mr pinky", coz he wear pink shirt yesterday... n i was named "mr FATTY".........
it's true anyway...haha...

jianhua is such a PRO player... almost clean the table when playing wif me... i only cued twice before the game end... wah...he is reali an very accurate shooter...
xingrong oso nt bad... the posture of his very accurate n standard... he said he start off his playing wif snooker... no wonder he so accurate... i guess jianhua was oso a snooker player as his pose reali like a snooker player...
leonard n ah du oso nt bad... ah du n xingrong n siping juz cldnt stop joking ard... haha...
talked wif songyu during the break... he was so tired but still quite talkative... there will nt be short of topics to talk wif him... haha... he is such a nice person...
siping played one round wif songyu... although siping was so reluctant...haha... she still remember last tym playing pool wif yiwei n me... it's was so funni... she cloud even make the ball jump up... haha... so xingrong n jianhua gav her a quick coaching during her break... haha...
ard 1 plus, when everyone is so tired out... we left... songyu siping leonard n i still share the cab as usual... tis time i was the last one to drop *sobx*... coz it's shorter to go tampinese where siping n leonard live than of simei... haha...
if nt wrong, tis thurs will hav to cum out n jog wif siping n leonard... to improve lung capacity...haha...

it's so fun to cum out wif ppl like them... laughter non stop... know ppl like songyu n leonard more... but the sad thing is tat I FOTGOT TO TAKE PHOTO LE....

2005-05-17T09:50:00.000-07:00

406 revolutional cleaning...

2005-05-17T09:48:00.000-07:00

umairah, jazi, rashmi, nisa n gayly cheng hwee...haha...

2005-05-17T09:21:00.000-07:00

YESTERDAY i finished my last paper of my mid-yr---science paper1!! basically all the qns r in mcq form so i din study so hard the nite before...
until the morning, i was still slacking in the class...doing nth constructive...like recording my msg for the test run of the internet radio yesterday... was wondering why boonhoe n ferdi r trying to make it professional... by means of doing a full schedule of our programme n asking me to sign in a slot or two...
n tis morning i had to record a msg for the "audience" coz of my absence tis afternoon...
(todae they told me there were only two ppl listen our station during test run...)

anyway, after the last paper, all malay n chinese atudents had to stay back for a reserch test conducted by MOE... it's a waste of tym man...reali... n i was actually nt supposed to do the test as there was nt my name in the candidate list...but it's realised when the test had started, so they juz anyhow cancel an absentee's name n put my name in... they juz dun want me to leave early in prevention of distracting other ppl... tats wat i guess...
after tat, i was going to leave for home...but see so many of my frens stayed back to do the classroom cleaning... so i could only stay coz of wifout any persuasive reason...

we scratch off the scotch tape sticked on the floor for a math game few months ago... n clean the window... unbelievebly, the dust on the window is thick enough to flow up when i blow to it...
see how dirty our class is... n it's an air-con room summore... no wonder so many students get sick over the days...

before they started cleaning the table n chairs, i left as i cant take it anymore... coz i got to send sth to yimin n i was reali very tired... unlike those energetic guys, dun know how they store their energy... seems wont use up...

as for the ktv session tat nite, pls check e next post...

2005-05-15T08:50:00.000-07:00

xiaohan aileen yifeng n me...neoprint taken at PS..ppl looks more beautiful in neoprint...hav to say...hahaha...

mourning day

2005-05-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

JUZ now received a quite bad new frm siping regarding meilian n xingrong their "jue dui super star" competition, third round result...
to our unexpectedness, n oso quite sadly, they din make it to next round...
was quite wondering two of them shouldnt be elimunated so easily...both of them r very skilled n "powerful" singer... nobody would deny it after see their performance...
is it becoz the competitors tis yr very strong?? or they din bring out their best coz of sum external factors??
music is a subjective thing... maybe their style doesnt fit wif judges' taste??
who knows?? but anyway, it's a fact tat they r very gd n skilled singers, chances will definitely be in their hands one day...

spent a whole day in baoguan...

baoguan
has a meeting wif xiuhui at 12... after i arrived, idled awhile n surf internet n chat away... until 1plus, we started doing the "right" things...prepare stuffs for the meeting later...
found xiuhui is a reali very crappy gal... she oso said tat...non-stop talking de...hahaha... first time feel tat she is a super funni n talkative person...
then ppl for meeting cum one after another... at 2pm plus, xiaohan arrived, we started our meeting...
things tat leaders n station masters to take note has been settled...

was going to see meilian n xingrong in mediacorp n giv them supports, but still got things to
settle, so called up leonard n cancelled the appointment...haix...

after tat, xiaohan aileen zijie n i stayed n discussed abt the games order arrangement n competition chart... it's so hard to arrange the games order especially wif only 5 groups n 7 staitons to play... 5 of the 7 stations r for 2 groups to compete... how to plan so as to make it every group can play every station n compete wif diff groups??
unavoidly, sum groups hav to either play a same station agn or compete wif same gp agn...
first time found it's nt easy to plan games...

we left after tat...
xiaohan aileen n me went to PS n bought sum stuffs for sports day... after tat, yifeng came n we took sum neoprints then left home...while xiaohan n yifeng would still ebjoy their happy hours...
remember on the way to PS, xiaohan talked to us sumthing abt her relationship... all i can say is xiaohan is a so strong gal... or maybe a person wif "backbone"...
hope her relationship will stay stable for long long long time... n presently it seems tat is nt hard to achieve... for them...haha...

after went home, my whole body collapse onto my bed n fell asleep...
tml is my last paper, after tat i can at least be free for few days time...

To boonhoe n ferdi, sori im so busy recently... i can reali nt get some time free to help u construct e internet radio station... the test run tml u two jiayou... i will redeem it by making my progrmme nice n listenworthy after the launch on 1st of june ...
u guys keep it up... i will support u mentally...hahaha...
thx... my dear timothy n ferdi...hahaha...

congratulate siping!!

2005-05-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

A VERY SUPER ULTIMATE BIG CONGRATULATION TO SIPING!!!!
SHE GET INTO NUS ARTS!!!!
(wuwuwu...pong, pong, pong....pang pang pang)<--firecrackers!!!
hav to say she so scheming, she suddenly giv out tis BIG new when we were walking to taka...summore she said it carelessly, was like...juz say say, if u dun care then i dun mind...tat knid of attitude...hahahaha...but it reali shocked the ppl there, ah du, songyu, leonard, jiahao n me!!!! i was thinking if i shld ask her how was the interview...but so afraid if she tell me a bad new (choi choi choi!!!!!)... so juz wait to hear frm her...
to my unexpectedness, she told us tis gd new when we were like thinking wat to eat n blah blah blah... like sumone throw u a BIG ball when u r standing there n watching other ppl playing...
but she reali done a very GD JOB!!!
hahaha...anyway, still a very big congratulation... know she had been worried abt her admission to NUS or NTU for a long time...n now she can finally relax n prepare to be a university student who always lead a beautiful n colorful life....wowowowowow....haha...

muchuan
as usual, i went for vocal lesson tis afternoon...today we can start practising the first song of our class...fen shou kuai le by liang jing ru... before tat he invited EVONNE n accompany to do the excercise we learned before agn...
the embarrased one is the LIPS VIBRATION... wat we r supposed to do is to blow air out thru mouth n vibrate the lips...so as to make a weird sound...
i was spilling more than vibrating my lips... so embarrased...everyone was looking at me n the excercise got spoilt by the stupid sound i made... coz it reali sounds veri funny n weird...take closer look, can even see few slight saliva spilled out accidentaly...
when is my turn to sing fen shou kuai le, i was reali very nervous, dunt know im so panic abt wat...onli three ppl there excluding me...n everyone of us quite close n familiar to one another...
(k lah...maybe im nt so close to zhiwei, coz he is a bit cold...haha...) juz very nervous...luckily i din make any big or serious mistake... ah du said all the ppl in class hav nt pitching prob... hoo...
after class, idled ard in muchuan office for awhile...then left for orchard wif ah du, leonard, songyu n jiahao...

orchard
ah du want to subscribe a blockband...internet...so we accompanied him to hello... during ah du n leonard chatting wif the reception personel there, jiahao songyu n i sit in the couch beside n chat... songyu told me alot abt huang cheng, he was a hwa chong student n he participated in huang chong both yrs in jc...first yr he was an actor, second yr he promoted to be a playwright... he got told me abt the drama he came out wif in tat yr...
it's a veri meaningful story...

it describe abt 6 ppl wif diff background n commit suicide at the same time... among the 6 of them, three was sent to a strange place when the god brought the rest three to the real heaven...means the three ppl left was nt rest in peace or rather...died completely...
each of the three was sent to a diff place n unknot a solicitude which is knoted tightly inside thier hearts wifout their awareness... they went thru diff circumstances n finally apprehend wat is the most important thing in the life...nt working...but the wife of a officeman n the aborted baby of a woman... the last person is a boss of a company...he was brought to his funeral...n he found the ppl their never shed a single tear for his passing away... he then went to a "TEAR BANK" n wifdraw "TEARS" frm there...he was a richman so supposedly he has abundant of tears even in tears bank... unexpectedly, when he open the big box which store his tears. he found only one tear inside the box...
in the end, he never say the passwaord he supposed to say in order to go heaven...tats is "money can not make everything possible"
the woman n the officeman said their passwords n brought to heaven... which is "i wish u (his wife) " n "........(i forgot...^^!!)" respectively...

the whole story was a series of unexpectedness...as songyu said...until the last minute, the audience can never figure out wat happened to the 3 ppl n who is died but who is nt...
after tat he got tok a lot abt huang cheng, it made me want to go hcjc more n more...
but i know unless i eat up my textbooks, i wont be able to even see the doorsill...
haiz...

after tat we went to meet siping meilian n xinrong... then we dined in yoshinoya in taka...
songyu sung some very funni songs which is the modified version of sum pop songs...
had a very fun time there...after tat we dismiss n head for our own homes...
siping very tired...meilian oso...so they took cab first...im a thrify boy so i din take wif them...hahaha...(its actually becoz i din wifdraw enough money lah...) hahaha...

on the way home, was thinking abt the moving house thing... simei is the place i stayed for the longest...

MY HOUSE MOVING HISTORY
Geylang Bahru----3 months (wif 2nd sis n her honey)
Aljunied----6 months (wif 1st sis)
Potong Pasir----3 moths (wif 1st sis)
Be dok----1 yr (wif 1st sis)
Simei----1.5 yr (still ongoing wif 1st sis n mom)

hope my next station can be a nearer to baoguan n muchuan...it's more convinient to go there le mah...hahaha...

SHOOT!!

2005-05-13T11:09:00.000-07:00

JUZ now watched SHOOT, i went for the programme recording few weeks ago...
its reali very weird to see urself on tv...feel like,

WHY AM I DOING THERE??=.=?

n i cldnt believe how disgusting my voice is...
TATS NT ME!!!!!!!
i shouted inside many many times...
n all i can say for my performance on tat day is...lousy?!

i din say too much, nth much is constructive...it reflected how influent n ineloquent my speaking skill is when i sat beside xiubin n other two guests...
xiubin is a gd speaker, confident n hav great sense of humour...
the girl sit beside me quite pitiful lah, frankly speaking...
she acted diao as a teen wif attitude prob...during recording she kept lowering her head n said "cant stand liao lah..."
in short, she is like "doing effect" for the programme, i heard it frm zhiwei n guanfang after recording...

btw, she is the "school flower" summore, was featured in friday weekly together wif xumao last yr...
so i asked her if she know xumao or nt, she then started looking everywhere n lost in words..."erm..erm...erm..."
haha....i said YOU R THE XIAO HUA (SCHOOL FLOWER) RITE??
was caught...she said...
xiubin din believe in the first place, coz the presnet her looks....nt like a school flower...
as in...nt as pretty as we expect a school flower to be...
unlike the one last yr, quite thin, n now....im nt in a position to say she is fat lah...coz im worse..

ANYWAY,
it's a reali memorable experience...thx xiubin, she kept encouraging me to speak out...
hooo...feel a sense of security sitting by her...hahaha...
n had quite fun chatting wif ppl there during break, im nt spreading any rumours...
but xu zheng rong always came n tok wif xiubin every break... n shift a lil attention to the rest of us at times...
xiubin is chio bu mah...haha...he kept calling her "mei nv, mei nv"....
haha... k lah...exaggerated a bit...but it's all based on truth oh....haha...

CONSLUSION
anyway, i made sum conclusion after watching todae programme...

1.im so FAT!!
2.my NECK cant even be seen coz of a fat layer of DOUBLE CHIN!!!
3.my face so OILY...but i remember xiubin kept crying for cold all the time...WATS WRONG WIF MY NERVE SYSTEM??
4.my thigh so THICK!!!
5.luckily my popcorn t-shirt covered my "pregnant" belly in a way
6.FAT!!FAT!!FAT!! IM SO FAT!!

my flesh seems to be conquering my face n submerging my "facial features"... my eyes, nose, lips, mouth...r getting smaller n smaller....
OMG!!!! sumone cum n save me....!!!!
will my face be a mass of flesh one day???
gosh...!!!!!!
Mr Tahir...where r u??? (to those who dunt know who is Mr. Tahir, he is my tcher-in-charge of TAF club...)

haiz... forget it, im the kind of person who want to be thin but dun want to go tough club...

Mid year reflection

2005-05-13T09:10:00.000-07:00

NEXT week one more paper, then my mid-yr exam officially end...
talk abt my performance tis time, it's fair.

english
the essay n formal letter tis time should be the best pieces among the ones i did in school. i cant point out the distinctions, but after the paper, for once i would look forward to seeing my result. for paper2, as wat i said over the days, i almost fell asleep during the paper, n was waken up by Mr Tahir summore. i anyhow copied n scribbled down the summary then throw myself into a nice n peaceful(quiet!) sleep...by then Mr Tahir had left already...

Combine human
social studies Okae... though i followed my tradition tat leave the last SBQ qn blank, as not enough time to finish up...in the end of the test, my hands was like shiverung itself, automatically, out of my control... can only take advandage of the speed n quickly jot down watever i was thinking... cant even check if the spelling n grammar r correct or nt...
geog is reali given up. i admit, i din study the nite before lah, all my focus was on emath, never expected tat it cum out emath quite easy n geog very tricky...
one qn abt manufacturing i reali almost left it blank, first time for my exam, only written down few factors... before i want to put in more craps, times up!
i remember the qn is like
wat impacts r brought to singapore if more MNCs set up their branch (invest in) in here?
looks very easy, but my answer too resemble the last qn one, so i dared nt to write down...n kept staring at the qn ...

combined science
physic OKae, chemistry was also killing me... those topics expected to cum out never cum out... haiz... so it's nt use to predict the exam qns before... next week got paper1...juz hope can do better, though the marks doesnt contribute a lot to my final result...

higher chinese
paper1 oso ok, but paper2 reali crushed my spec (die po yan jing~!!). the compre is soooo hard, oso for once i cant do... i din even know where to copy the amswer frm the text... at last, i juz written down watever came to my mind...

amath
paper1 screwed, paper2 ok...but the heavy loss of marks in paper1 can never be made up for juz pass... actually paper1 is nt hard, perhaps i din hav enough sleep last nite, or i used a wrong way to revise...when i see the qn, i juz could nt squeeze any formulae or solution to put into the qns...
paper2 is ok, at least for one whole qn i think i can get it all rite...

qns r nt difficult, but juz couldnt answer it... should do more practises for each subjects...
but anyway, now reali feel like im a "O" candidate... quite excited...haha...coz previously i din hav any feeling tat im sitting for a "O" tis scary exam the end of tis yr...
everytime see dongdong, jiahao, tj, liling n jinjuan... n my classmates, so worried abt their exams n looks so stressed... i was juz wondering it still has a long long time to go before "O" or prelim..
especially yuru, she even show me the details of her studying shedules n warned me tat there is nt much time left if u deduct the time u used for schooling n sleeping n eating...etc, for u to study n prepare for "O"...
as for qianqian, i still couldnt see the stress frm her face or wat...haha...
for me, at least now i can calm down n study...
jiayou jiayou jiayou...
all my frens
jiayou!!!!!

2005-05-11T07:45:00.000-07:00

at muchuan, the night before yunching leaving for taiwan, german then.

the present life

2005-05-11T07:21:00.000-07:00

has been 4 months time since my last entry...
it's a long story if i want to update ALL the things happened over the days in tis blog
i believe in my memory so i wont trace back n record down
anyway, only few things to represent the life im leading now

1.school--"o"level
2.baoguan
3.muchuan

5 months away frm the big big "o", i got to buck up frm the momet NOW... nt long time ago, i was actually in a dilemma of either going jc or poly, though im still nt confirmed if i can be admitted in jc or nt...
on the surface, its a wise choice to go jc as more academical subjects r offered
but im really already fed up wif the strict system in these schools...in other words the piles of strict laws n rules posed on u once u r in their uniform...
the times i wear uniform to go school has already been 6 yrs, excluding primary school days...
of course i dunt want to be in a cloth standing for a honor of a school anymore...
few days ago, i raised tis topic in the chatting wif weizheng...
to his very shock, he said how can i go poly??
i think in a hwa chong institution student's context, going poly means a gloomy future ahead...
he said its a quite stupid desition to go poly, A level qualification is much more valuable than a diploma...
even u want to apply for the universities abroad, higher chances r the students wif "A" qualification get admitted...
i remeber a time when tj said she may be going poly n then got scolded by weizheng...
am i a chinless person??
but who wants to make a unsuitable desition which might gamble on its future??
haiz...forget it,
life juz once, so wat if i made a wrong desition?? life will never turn back, wat i experience it's wat i gain...
there muz a path going down, the difference is the view n scene i will be watching along the way...
life is beautiful, no matter wat is chosen to construct the bridge heading for the end of life...

baoguan
orientation is over, it's really a very memorable times to do the prepararion works in advance...
reminded me of the last yr culture camp, enjoy working wif ppl like aileen liuzhen siping tj weizheng n xiubin...etc.
ruiying greeted a group of newbies, a brand new power pour into ruiying, txy club...
got to say they all very cute...they always meet before cuming to baoguan, without informing tingjie or weizheng, leaders... can see the frenship is there already...
reminded me of the 19 batch frens, sadly, only a few are still alive...happily, i made sum frens frm other gp n other batch...
start rushing huixun right after our mid-yr...

muchuan
i registered for vocal class in muchuan nt long ago...thanks siping, she brought me to muchuan tis wonderful n cosy place... right after first visit, jiahao n i decided to register for the vocal class, become the classmates of siping n shimei...
knew a-du tis guy, he is my vocal tcher...god knows how he can sing so well?? n how funny he is...classical is his imitation of BAO YA ZHEN in movie kongfu hustle
n oso, saw jianhua the man who had been fascinating siping the days before...
n oso saw other members of monster, meilian ximei, super funny ah... n other ppl...
so now i almost go muchuan at least once a week, to learn vocal...

tats roughly the life of mine nowadays...
changed a new blogskin, think tis time my passion (or determination?!) on writing post can last longer, at least wont hav a such long break in middle...
hopefully...haha...

hardworkingness

2005-01-09T11:20:00.000-08:00

so~~watd happened all these days leh...
teachers keep warning us how fast n hard tis yr will be...we shall prepare for o level start at the moment right now!!!no slacking anymore...so the study gp oso got ready to reopen...
tis yr i drop my pure science...so there got 6 free periods 4 me to waste per week...plus chinese class tat i oso dunt hav to go~so i got almost 12 free periods per week for me to spent!!!!
shall use it wisely...
the six free scienece periods of the first week all used to do my hw...all the ppl so quiet to do thier own works...obviously everyone felt the streesd atmosphere.... all so concertated on studyings...
but it proved me wrong...
after few minutes all the ppl revealed their true colours...
some gather together n chat...sum sleep...khairil n thoufic sit beside me n annoy me...i m nt a persistent person so i then joint their chatting...
so after the whole week...nothing meaningful is actually done...
fri nite aminah called me for he study gp...
we decided tat every tue n thur we hav our study gp after skul...n we will rearrange the schedul after the timetable of the ec n sss is given out...
aminah me iyshah khairil thoufic fathimah n boonhoe(probably...) r the members of the study gp... most of the members r so talkative...i gradually worry abt the effect n efficency of the study gp...
but nvm...i m sure we can control our crappy n talkative cells for the super important exam the end of tis yr...
sat go bg for the meeting of da sheng jiang after took kaili n kaijing to there for a interview...
6 of the nucleus gp members r told to do the street interview to any sec or jc students in s,pore... it's a kind of pt job as we can earn at least 20 bucks every week...if any interview of u did is carried in newspaper u will then get 10 more bucks for each interview...
quite look forward to it...
saw tat person tat day...quite shocked as i din expect tat person wld be turning up tat day...
ok~little bit out of track...
after tat meeting went home lah...
think tats all for tat day...
juz now arranged another study gp wif dongdong tj n lingling...
our study gp is held on tml in durian...
so excited as havnt been seeing dong n ling since they came back frm beijing n taipei...
arranged so many study gps...i felt tat am i trying to get a reasonable excuse to chat wif my frens??
dunt know...but i will be very hardworking tis yr for sure....
lets do my unfulfill hw bah!!!!!