JUZ now watched SHOOT, i went for the programme recording few weeks ago...
its reali very weird to see urself on tv...feel like,

WHY AM I DOING THERE??=.=?

n i cldnt believe how disgusting my voice is...
TATS NT ME!!!!!!!
i shouted inside many many times...
n all i can say for my performance on tat day is...lousy?!

i din say too much, nth much is constructive...it reflected how influent n ineloquent my speaking skill is when i sat beside xiubin n other two guests...
xiubin is a gd speaker, confident n hav great sense of humour...
the girl sit beside me quite pitiful lah, frankly speaking...
she acted diao as a teen wif attitude prob...during recording she kept lowering her head n said "cant stand liao lah..."
in short, she is like "doing effect" for the programme, i heard it frm zhiwei n guanfang after recording...

btw, she is the "school flower" summore, was featured in friday weekly together wif xumao last yr...
so i asked her if she know xumao or nt, she then started looking everywhere n lost in words..."erm..erm...erm..."
haha....i said YOU R THE XIAO HUA (SCHOOL FLOWER) RITE??
was caught...she said...
xiubin din believe in the first place, coz the presnet her looks....nt like a school flower...
as in...nt as pretty as we expect a school flower to be...
unlike the one last yr, quite thin, n now....im nt in a position to say she is fat lah...coz im worse..

ANYWAY,
it's a reali memorable experience...thx xiubin, she kept encouraging me to speak out...
hooo...feel a sense of security sitting by her...hahaha...
n had quite fun chatting wif ppl there during break, im nt spreading any rumours...
but xu zheng rong always came n tok wif xiubin every break... n shift a lil attention to the rest of us at times...
xiubin is chio bu mah...haha...he kept calling her "mei nv, mei nv"....
haha... k lah...exaggerated a bit...but it's all based on truth oh....haha...

CONSLUSION
anyway, i made sum conclusion after watching todae programme...

1.im so FAT!!
2.my NECK cant even be seen coz of a fat layer of DOUBLE CHIN!!!
3.my face so OILY...but i remember xiubin kept crying for cold all the time...WATS WRONG WIF MY NERVE SYSTEM??
4.my thigh so THICK!!!
5.luckily my popcorn t-shirt covered my "pregnant" belly in a way
6.FAT!!FAT!!FAT!! IM SO FAT!!

my flesh seems to be conquering my face n submerging my "facial features"... my eyes, nose, lips, mouth...r getting smaller n smaller....
OMG!!!! sumone cum n save me....!!!!
will my face be a mass of flesh one day???
gosh...!!!!!!
Mr Tahir...where r u??? (to those who dunt know who is Mr. Tahir, he is my tcher-in-charge of TAF club...)

haiz... forget it, im the kind of person who want to be thin but dun want to go tough club...