sth happened to us in sch todae...
becuz of some misunderstandings or the differences in the definition of sth, we had a little quarrel (or a small debate) todae...
anw, for all my dear frens who know abt it out there, i still believe in 2 things

1. we r ALWAYS the closest frens
2. frictions and quarrels (debates!!) is part of the process that make us understand one another better

tml is another day, is a better day, i oso believe in this:)

 
as wat i mentioned to wangyu and yuzhi 2 days ago, everytime i listen tanya chua's songs, esp the latest one "beautiful love", i wld almost be on verge of crying...
nt becuz sth sad happened to me tat relates to this songs.
neither is the lyrics tt describes sth abt my life or wat i had gone thru in the past...
juz the melody, her voice, the feel that make me on verge of tears alomost EVERYTIME...

it reminds me of the times happened since the Olevel until now...
all along, i gained a lot, lost a lot, sth lost after i realised that i once gained it...
too many things happened, watever bad, sad, joyable or hurt....
juz that whenever i tot of all the people that happened stumbled into my life... i will feel that im blessed... i shldnt think of those i lost...
becuz all these were never belongs to me and now, they accompany me whenever i feel alone or in need...

i noe sometimes, we cant ask for sth more than wat we shld deserve... however, when i have sth, i want sth more, sth special and different frm wat i had...
n all along, i never learn how to treasure things that in my hands...
n when i open up my hands agn, i then realised sth has gone...

i always hav a sensation that, if i never met up with some people... my life will totalli be different...
if i never met O level gang, i may be leaving for taiwan and continues my studying there...
if i never met them, my long holidays will be so damn boring and dead...
if i never met T02, my life in NP will definitely be nt as interesting and joyful as now...
if i never met the 9 ppl gang, i may most likely be veri alone in sch.. and NP to me is just a place for me to pursue my studying, nt sth memorable to me when i leave the school...
if i never join SAG, i may nt realise that drama is sth so interesting and those ppl are so cute...
..................

however, there r sth i dun wan to talk abt, for its just meaningless...
or... i learnt a lot frm it... and now, i shld peacefulli say a goodbye to them... cuz they will never come back to me...

anw, be it a sat or joyful thing, i still feel veri blessed wif wat i have now...
i noe sumtimes in future, they will leave me for sumwhere belongs to them... some others will come to me and share my gd and bad in my life...
gradualli, i feel tat we need to learn how to face the various loss in our lifes... and treasure watever we have... and when they leave, try to smile to it and say a peaceful goodbye...

i saw my frens grow up frm the ones i met in the beginging... and they are doing a better life for themselves... im so touched with the differences they made... cuz to challenge all the odds in life and pursue dreams is sth we shld feel happy abt... however, now i realised, i cant let go on those i tot that belongs to me.. they r changing, they can leave me when they wan to go sumwhere else, can go out and look for somewhere new and beautiful
actualli...im oso doing the same thing... with or without my awareness, i drifted away frm those i used to be with...
to lose up my grip... maybe i will feel better

sth veri ironic, i feel im going thru sth yuzhi and huimei gone thru before... and i was trying to console them for all these...
and now, i realised, i never noe how to face all these changes on my own feets...

我失去过，更珍惜拥有
now i noe wats the things touch me whenever i hear the song,"beautiful love"

多庆幸我是我，被你疼爱的我
紧紧牵住我的手，不要放手 永远守护我
a token of gratefulness to those who accompanied and accompany me...

O level gang
TXY
Ruiying
9-people-gang
T02
SAG
EVSS
thank u dears... i reali thank u for everything u gave me...
u guys always mean veri different to me
luv u...
and
thanks
:)

(dears, im definitely fine, its just im digesting sth in my mind... dun think tt im abnormal or watver negative emotions are obsessing me, haha, i luv the word, obsses..:p)