ok, so the fire between dongdong n me is ceased now...
the outcum is reali very "soap drama"...
the day after we quarreled, i went to baoguan... bingrong n dongdong was there doing the gao as usual... the atmosphere was quite fine all the way... but did still feel a bit awkard when i looked at dongdong or tok to each other...
untill quite late, after bingrong went home n zhicheng came to baoguan, we started toking abt the thing which kept in our minds for a quite while... during the break when zhicheng went gents...
i told her how sad i was when she tok to me last night... n so did her...
we were like confessing sumthing n finally we ended the whole thing up wif a hug...
i know there muz be a BIG "DOTS..." in zhicheng's mind who was sitting beside us...
it's reali very "de......." coz we seldom be so "rou ma" to each other...
anw, it's over...

yesterday went muchuan for vocal lesson...
think i was a bit in form tat day... while the rest three was obviously nt...
oso the first tym i had a quite long conversation wif zhiwei...
he is a quite funny guy i feel..
jiahao zhiwei n i stayed on the stage n played the mic n the sound system so on after the lesson when ah du was conducting another one at basement...
after the dinner, jiahao ah du n i finally sat down n tok abt the moving thing...
basically, we will move out at the end of tis nov... n the ideal location is clementi...
however, jiahao muz hav his brother taken care wif a new gurdian... n his mother has nt reali agreed wif tis thing yet...
so too many potential accidents to confirm...

actually im a bit scared if we move out n stay together...
i know it's nt a easy thing to live wif frens... too many potential friction may be occured...
it happened to me even when i lived wif my sis.... nt to mention frens...
too many things to consider...
too many things to be prevented in advance...
it's nt as easy as to say "lets move out bah~"
but i do still look forward to living wif them... at least i can get total control over my life...
considered halfly independent...

but its reali an exciting thing to live wif frens...
i can invite my frens to my home n hav party together...
a mini gathering place...
but muz consider if they wan my frens to be there...
think it's ok if ppl invited r known among us like siping all them...
but how abt my own frens???
n do they like to watch "kang xi lai le"??? which programme to watch if we hav diff choices??
see!! many quesitons have come forward even when i juz think abt it...

the discussion was disruopted wif the call frm dongdong..
they wanted to watch movie "initial D" n asked me cum along...
it's so ex to watch fri night movie...
they had been bargaining wif me since tat afternoon...
ok, i made a mistake tat i promised them to go tat afternoon, which is juz to make them hang up the phone...
it became a tool for dongdong to threaten me to go...
so gotto leave...
before tat, ah du picked up a call...
din take notice wat was he toking abt... but one of the sentence he said brought my attention...
"ok...then siping can juz live ur place for tonight lor..."
dingdong!!! i bet the call is frm xingrong...
so simple tat who else besides xinrong is close to siping enuf to spent night together among ah du's frens???

then went for movie lah... initial D is quite gd, in terms of the filming skill... nt worse than those japanese production or even hollywood movies...
n yu wen le is so handsome n chen guan xi is rather ok n zhou jie lun has nt gd acting skill n the actress's leg is so thin n long tat dongdong kept exclaiming...
quite funny one, few parts are reali classic...

as for today, spent my last day in baoguan for this holidays... for my txy frens, i think it's a long time for u to see me next tym... gotto "chong" for my "O"...
btw, im going to move agn... to tampines...
over my four yrs in evss, the place i stayed had been getting nearer n nearer to my school...
n now im finally getting to tampines...

aljunied --> potong pasir --> bedok --> simei --> tampinese

for the ending of my secondary life, i can finally live at a place where i dun hav to scare to be late for school every morning...

 
long tym din blog...
quite many things happened over the days...

came back frm china trip
it's a so memorable trip as of the company of dongdong siping bingrong xiaoying weizheng zhicheng meizhu ah bei, minyi n many many more....
quite a interesting one...
especially the nights we spent together wif supper n loads of stuff to chat....
china food so GREAT!!!
n the things so cheap tat i cldnt help buying stuffs like clothes , shoes, blanket n MASHIMARO...
tats it...

still hav to rush on the huixun n the gao for the suzhou trip...
monday spent a night at baoguan n finally get most of the parts of huixun done...
tues also made it to finish the suzhou gao for zaobao...
as for wed...
i had a quite firey quarrel wif dongdong over the gao...
ok, maybe there was a miscommunication in the first place, so the way they write the gao is quite far diff frm mine...
it shld be the first fight we had since we know each other one yr ago...
dongdong had been a nice n farni fren to be wif...
but maybe coz of my unsatisfication on their gao so she got fed up wif it...
i know im nt in a position to get the total control over their gao...
but jinjuan n i r reali under the pressure to let them to produce a gao which meet guanfang n zhiwei's standard...
summore the trip is taken so seriously by the CND department n even the SPH...
n the gao for orientation tis yr reali made them puke out...
we dun wan this kind of thing happen agn...
i know im wrong to be so overreactive... it's nt my own job to write the gao n they also want to make it perfect...
im sorri...
juz now received a sms frm dongdong... she never mention the quarrel... but i know she is showing her concerns over me...
thx n sorri... i sms sth back...
hope the quarrel can be ceased overnight...
haiz...

juz now went to daniel's blog... he wrote a post abt the way to treat fren...
quite touched after read the post...
but my reflection on it might be a bit away frm the theme...
i feel tat frenship cant be asked for intentionally...
it form naturally... u cant be sure of the ppl u will make as frens...
there r always sum ppl u want to go wif but they hav diff frequency frm urs...
TOTALLY DIFF...
they r nice... but they juz cant be ur click...
im nt sure if making fren can go along wif intentions...
i like the life philosophy of dongdong...
she said she wont ask for sth tat doesnt suit her... inclusively frens...
once she feel uncomfortable wif sum ppl or sum things sum places, she will try nt to be wif them agn...
i know i cant be so easy going as her...
there r sth i cant let off... even though its nt sth u can possess...

last night met yunching online... had a chat wif her on tis topic...
we cant realli tok to the point coz we reali got too much craps to tok... n the chatting was kept being distracted by sth like how ex is the stuff in munich...
but thanks her... i felt better after chatted wif her....
got to say we r reali alike... in characters...
i got mention sum situations which help her understand my prob better...
n she kept saying "yes yes yes, yah yah yah...i always feel the same..."
ok...lame ppl r always alike...haha...

it's time to learn how to put down sth u like but doesnt suit u...
im nt a child anymore...i cant hav thing i like juz by crying...
i try nt to be aware of sth... juz let it flow by... but i can still feel the hurt it left...
as if there is a lemon squeezed in ur heart...
i want to hav sth which is of others now...
JEALOUSY
yes, jealousy...
now im finally clear of the thing im annoyed...
but so wat??...............