DAILY FUSS...(its gone after tml...)

still cannt fall asleep at such late the night...
happened many things recently... i seems cant get back to the track tat i used to or supposed to be on it...
there r so many things going the opposite direction to tat of u wan...
im still nt used to accept things tat im extremly reluctant to...
the world is nt revolving ard me... i muz go thru the times when the sunshine is nt shined on me...

sumtimes im thinking... wats the diff between love n reliance??

these two resemble to each other too much tat many ppl always mix the two up...
in my context...

love a person... u r willing to give all the things to him or her, even at the expense of sacrificing urself...
rely on a person... u r willing to help him or her whenever he or she in need of a hand...

love a person... u wan to be wif him or her all the time...
rely on a person... u r used to the accompany of him or her...

love a person... u wan to buss his or her seductive lips...
rely on a person... u sumtimes cant help thinking of the feeling tat kiss on his or her adorable face...

love a person... u wan to be as close to him or her as possible...
rely on a person... its used to be veri close to him or her... so it doesnt matter to take one more step forward...

its common to mix the two up...
or love is evolved frm reliance???
coz u found u cant live without his or her breath by ur ears everyday...
u keep calling him or her whenevea u feel lonely...

gosh... hope the person will nt mix the two up... coz i know he is nt only satisfied to be the gd fren of the person... there r more... he wan more of the person...
n the person may wan more out of him...

i know a fren who is used to the accompany of one of her frens...
n her fren is oso used to the accompany of her...
even my fren knows tat its merely possible tat her fren wld nod for being her stead...
n even her fren is oso veri confused...
they r symbiotic to each other... but her fren juz cant make up his mind...
my fren is willing to wait... even its a tiring n hurting way to go...
when they r together, she can steal a feeling tat they r an item...
speaking frankly, im envious of tis kind of state at times... at least she is at a position where nearest to his heart compared to others...
wif the cover of "gd fren", i think i can be closer to the person...
sumtimes reali wan to punch the person... to hate the person...
to hate a person is sumhow easier than to like a person...
im tired n sicked of the situation now...
cant wait to the days i can finally fly out of the person's control...
invisible n unaware control...

(used to write "the person" to refer to the person, at least "she" or "it" or "wat" or "he" cant replace tis unreplaceable name in my heart...)

 
today went to see the students performance at muchuan...
was actually to support sips, leonard, jingying n yiquan...
met up wif the txy guys n for sum of them i din see for a long tym...
like yiwei ,fengling n xiuhui...
anw, after dined, we went to muchuan...
know sips n leonard hav been practising veri hard juz for tis performance... they both looks quite panick...
sips was walking abt in front of the doors... jingying was oso walking abt outside the muchuan...
obviously they were reali very panick towards the show...

after ah du n guohao sang two songs...
the first dang is sips leonard n the overnite-well known zhenyu(guitarist)...
they reali set a veri nice opening... by means of warm up the atmosphere wif sum sextual related jokes...haha...
both of them performed reali veri well... can see the chemistry is there... unlike sum of the dangs, u can obviously tell they din know each other b4 the students show...
it shld be the best dang of the nite... coz of the chemistry, n of coz the singers...

second dang is yiquan wif other two singers...
i dun know them, but the gal (called peishan or wat...??) dressed in a reali very formal way...
as in... she is the only one dressed the gown among the casual-dressing singers...
anw, its nt the point... coz of her dressing, i sumhow said "she dressed like she is cuming a night club..."
n concisdently, yinzhen (qiumqium's uni fren who sit beside me) know the gal...
n he is her gd fren summore... wat i had made fun of her was heard by him clearly... COZ I WAS TOKING TO THEM ABT IT...
omg... luckily he din care...
but still can feel how embarrased i was...
yiquan oso put up a quite nice show...

as for third dang, I MUZ SAY IM REALI VERY SORRY FOR THE GAL or the "xiao u" called by us...
last nite at muchuan, we heard xiao u practising the songs...
n she is used to turn her voice at a certain point of the songs...
like a u shape...
it was made fun of by us...
however, she is a gd singer... but i juz cldnt stop thinking wat we said abt her last nite...
so when she sing the first song "wo bu nan guo", i almost buried my head into jiahao's bag...
n try nt to shake my shoulders so tat they might know im laughing...
all the ppl ard me were laughing too...
i know its immoral... but i juz cldnt help it...
so i tried to lower my head n sip the drinks... pretent to nt listen her singing...
the whole cup of paradise dream was finished up within the time of one song...
i din even care abt ppl who tried to tok to me...
"bu yao jia jia (dun be fake..)" said the sips...
"chengyao......wuwu...."said the lori...
they were laughing too... n stupid jiahao who kept telling me sumthing funni he found on her...
i even dare nt to see xinrong... coz im sure i will definitely laugh out loud if i see his funni mimic of her...
was quite sad n guilty of it after tat... wat if she saw our reactions?? wat wld she feel??
tot we were nt purposedly doing so... but...
it can hurt her feeling a lot...
definitely....
so for the rest of this dang... i tried my best to listen how she sing but nt wat she sing...
after tat, its the guitar time of guohao n his student...
jingying n yuchin(dun know how to spell his name, n oso forgot his chinese name... isit jianyou or wat???)'s dang was rite after tat...
we went out n encourage her...
but after listen their performance, our encouragement is obviously extra...
they sing reali quite well
especially the yuchin(the guy lah...), he sing damn GD!!!
tot jingying got forgot part of the lyrics but overall oso nt bad...

after the students performance end...
ah du n guohao performanced two more songs...
ah du sing n played keyboard wif his almost numb hands (he played for almost all the dangs of the nite...)...
after xinrong n ah du performed the last two songs...
the day is over...
haiz...monday blue agn...