long tym din blog...
quite many things happened over the days...

came back frm china trip
it's a so memorable trip as of the company of dongdong siping bingrong xiaoying weizheng zhicheng meizhu ah bei, minyi n many many more....
quite a interesting one...
especially the nights we spent together wif supper n loads of stuff to chat....
china food so GREAT!!!
n the things so cheap tat i cldnt help buying stuffs like clothes , shoes, blanket n MASHIMARO...
tats it...

still hav to rush on the huixun n the gao for the suzhou trip...
monday spent a night at baoguan n finally get most of the parts of huixun done...
tues also made it to finish the suzhou gao for zaobao...
as for wed...
i had a quite firey quarrel wif dongdong over the gao...
ok, maybe there was a miscommunication in the first place, so the way they write the gao is quite far diff frm mine...
it shld be the first fight we had since we know each other one yr ago...
dongdong had been a nice n farni fren to be wif...
but maybe coz of my unsatisfication on their gao so she got fed up wif it...
i know im nt in a position to get the total control over their gao...
but jinjuan n i r reali under the pressure to let them to produce a gao which meet guanfang n zhiwei's standard...
summore the trip is taken so seriously by the CND department n even the SPH...
n the gao for orientation tis yr reali made them puke out...
we dun wan this kind of thing happen agn...
i know im wrong to be so overreactive... it's nt my own job to write the gao n they also want to make it perfect...
im sorri...
juz now received a sms frm dongdong... she never mention the quarrel... but i know she is showing her concerns over me...
thx n sorri... i sms sth back...
hope the quarrel can be ceased overnight...
haiz...

juz now went to daniel's blog... he wrote a post abt the way to treat fren...
quite touched after read the post...
but my reflection on it might be a bit away frm the theme...
i feel tat frenship cant be asked for intentionally...
it form naturally... u cant be sure of the ppl u will make as frens...
there r always sum ppl u want to go wif but they hav diff frequency frm urs...
TOTALLY DIFF...
they r nice... but they juz cant be ur click...
im nt sure if making fren can go along wif intentions...
i like the life philosophy of dongdong...
she said she wont ask for sth tat doesnt suit her... inclusively frens...
once she feel uncomfortable wif sum ppl or sum things sum places, she will try nt to be wif them agn...
i know i cant be so easy going as her...
there r sth i cant let off... even though its nt sth u can possess...

last night met yunching online... had a chat wif her on tis topic...
we cant realli tok to the point coz we reali got too much craps to tok... n the chatting was kept being distracted by sth like how ex is the stuff in munich...
but thanks her... i felt better after chatted wif her....
got to say we r reali alike... in characters...
i got mention sum situations which help her understand my prob better...
n she kept saying "yes yes yes, yah yah yah...i always feel the same..."
ok...lame ppl r always alike...haha...

it's time to learn how to put down sth u like but doesnt suit u...
im nt a child anymore...i cant hav thing i like juz by crying...
i try nt to be aware of sth... juz let it flow by... but i can still feel the hurt it left...
as if there is a lemon squeezed in ur heart...
i want to hav sth which is of others now...
JEALOUSY
yes, jealousy...
now im finally clear of the thing im annoyed...
but so wat??...............