DAILY FUSS...(its gone after tml...)

still cannt fall asleep at such late the night...
happened many things recently... i seems cant get back to the track tat i used to or supposed to be on it...
there r so many things going the opposite direction to tat of u wan...
im still nt used to accept things tat im extremly reluctant to...
the world is nt revolving ard me... i muz go thru the times when the sunshine is nt shined on me...

sumtimes im thinking... wats the diff between love n reliance??

these two resemble to each other too much tat many ppl always mix the two up...
in my context...

love a person... u r willing to give all the things to him or her, even at the expense of sacrificing urself...
rely on a person... u r willing to help him or her whenever he or she in need of a hand...

love a person... u wan to be wif him or her all the time...
rely on a person... u r used to the accompany of him or her...

love a person... u wan to buss his or her seductive lips...
rely on a person... u sumtimes cant help thinking of the feeling tat kiss on his or her adorable face...

love a person... u wan to be as close to him or her as possible...
rely on a person... its used to be veri close to him or her... so it doesnt matter to take one more step forward...

its common to mix the two up...
or love is evolved frm reliance???
coz u found u cant live without his or her breath by ur ears everyday...
u keep calling him or her whenevea u feel lonely...

gosh... hope the person will nt mix the two up... coz i know he is nt only satisfied to be the gd fren of the person... there r more... he wan more of the person...
n the person may wan more out of him...

i know a fren who is used to the accompany of one of her frens...
n her fren is oso used to the accompany of her...
even my fren knows tat its merely possible tat her fren wld nod for being her stead...
n even her fren is oso veri confused...
they r symbiotic to each other... but her fren juz cant make up his mind...
my fren is willing to wait... even its a tiring n hurting way to go...
when they r together, she can steal a feeling tat they r an item...
speaking frankly, im envious of tis kind of state at times... at least she is at a position where nearest to his heart compared to others...
wif the cover of "gd fren", i think i can be closer to the person...
sumtimes reali wan to punch the person... to hate the person...
to hate a person is sumhow easier than to like a person...
im tired n sicked of the situation now...
cant wait to the days i can finally fly out of the person's control...
invisible n unaware control...

(used to write "the person" to refer to the person, at least "she" or "it" or "wat" or "he" cant replace tis unreplaceable name in my heart...)